Falling for the Rain

Chapter 1 - Just the beginning ...

Now. Everything I do is now. Not tomorrow. Not yesterday. But now, right here in this moment. Just breathing in the reality of everything makes all my time precious yet pointless ...

Underneath my hands and all around my body is still, no movement except the brushes from my finger tips. I didn't know what I was doing till this hit me. Just right here, with everyone else passing by, yet, I catch myself waiting for something, anything to make this second count. But after being here for so long, nothing matters anymore, nothing.

Sometimes in life we wait for the end of everything to then realize how much we missed the best opportunities. Like that first kiss with that someone you love. Or the chance to say goodbye. We're too caught up in the moment to realize the things we miss. That eventually we will have another chance to succeed in them. But, what if it was the very last chance ...

Giving up time and cherish for distance and regret. I look back on that day all the time, wondering to myself if there was anything I could of or should have done to make this different. Anything simple could have changed this second I'm stuck in now. I could have said something. I should have done something. Anything. But I didn't ...

Everyone says "live your life without regrets" but I will forever regret my decision. No one can live for an average of 70 years and not have a single regret. Those who say this are lying to themselves, giving them a sense of security but not reality. Life is harsh and life is a battle of the fittest, so this fairy tale idea we have of it, of living happily ever after and having everything we want is just our escape route to avoiding the difficult life's we live ...

It's fake ...  It's all fake ...

This is how my fairy-tale ended ....