Why me?

Everyday I laugh but it's fake
Everyday I smile it's fake
Everyday I say it's fine that's a lie
I don't want to talk about ho who feel
But when I do nothing helps but talking to the lord!🙏🏻
Why me?
I always say that I just don't know why
I don't know why I always get hurt,
betrayed,anything and everything basically
But why me? Huh can you please tell me why me??
I just want to be happy again I don't feel happy anymore
Unless I am talking to the lord and he helps me with all of my problems!!!
Why,Why,Why me!!!
But I just want to know who I have
Who I can talk to
Who I can call when I'm having a bad day
Like just so what to me right??
Why me?. But just why me?!!??
I just really want to know when and where I can talk to you???
Say all of this and shit but then again you aren't here for me when needed!!!
Wow wow wow honestly why me?
I just don't know why it's got to be me??
Just why?
Because I just always want to cry my eyes out!
And never stop honestly!
Why
Why
Why
Why me?
Why me damn it!!!!😭😭😭