Healing Seoul

Chapter 1

After the biggest episode of my life, which was - breaking up with my ex fiancee two weeks before our supposed wedding. I turn into a walking zombie, just going around in auto mode and looking like life was taken away from me.

This is probably the most traumatic incident that has ever happened in my life. It was also the hardest ever break up. Although he is my first ever boyfriend, so I don't really have anything to compare to. But from all the breakups stories I ever heard from friends, getting dumped before your wedding seems to be among the worse stories out there. I can bet ya that no one in the right mind would ever volunteer to go through what I did. I feel so broken. It's feels like my heart was ripped out of my body and then thrown out of the 60th floor and then it crash and broke into fine pieces. It's no longer repairable, no one can't mend it. So you have to go through life with a heart that can't even function right. Why? Because no super glue in the world could fix the pieces.

We first met 10 years ago in high school, when we were just 13. Our love story I felt was a cliche. We felt in love at first sight on our first day in high school, he proposed after our college graduation and we then plan our wedding. We never fought, and we were the couple most people hated. Because our lives then seem perfect. Our story seems like it came out of a fairytale book, it was too good to be true. And true enough, my fairytale ended. 2 weeks ago, I found out he cheated on me. I found out just a day before our supposed wedding were to happen. But you know the saddest part, when I ask him if we should break up he too readily agreed. It was like I never even mattered to him. He never even ask me to give him another chance, he never even apologized. He just left and I was the one who had to cancel the wedding, I was the one who had to inform our parents that the wedding isn't going to happen. I had to call the caterer, the wedding planner and I had to call every single guest to inform them not to come and let them know that the wedding is cancelled. He left me all on my own to do everything. I couldn't face anyone, especially my parents and my family. It was truly tough because I know how worried and sad they are with this situation at hand. Nobody knew what to say to make me feel better.

The day after his family came to our house, to apologize on his behalf and return the money I have loss on the wedding, they didn't want me to go through financial loss too. They felt that it was the least they could do after their son just broke me. All the deposits were non refundable, I wasnt able to get any money back. But I knew, that they were running a business, not a charity. When his parents were at our house, I found it so hard to talk with them much less look them in the eye. Just cause everything about them reminds me of him, of what should have happen. His parents were actually the best. My relationship with them has always been great, and even though he's their son, they admitted his mistake and apologize for what he did. I had always been especially close to his younger sister, so seeing her crying in front of me, seeing her so despair broke me too. I knew his family never wanted this to happen, they had been the ones who gave him support and encouragement when he was planning our proposal. What happen broke them too, but I don't want them to feel apologetic because it isn't their fault. Before they left, I hug both his mom and sister. I thank them for everything they had given me for the last 10 years. I said goodbye to them, knowing that I won't be seeing them anytime soon.

After a lot of thinking, I realise that I definitely couldn't stand being even in the same country as him. I have to go away from the pity looks people around me were giving. Those pity eyes looking at me was making it all worse. So I pack my bags and book a flight to Seoul. I need to get away and Seoul was perfect. Why? Because I am a permanent resident(PR), so I don't need a visa to stay long term. Plus I have everything I needed there to start anew.

Seoul we meet again, I just never knew it would be under this circumstances.