LOUIS POV
I woke up as the sun was shining brightly. My pillow that was covered in tears quickly dried off during the night. I stretched before pulling my covers off. I got off the bed and proceeded to walk down the hallway. I got into the washroom and brushed my teeth. I pulled off my shirt and boxers before proceeding to jump into the shower. I washed my hair and my entire body. I felt good and confident today. I wasn't going to allow myself to break down in front of Harry today in case he was out and about and I had to photograph him.
My phone was ringing. It was the obnoxious Marimba ring tone too. I glanced at the caller I.D. and it was Eleanor. I rolled my eyes before answering it. I loved Eleanor, loved her not love her. I wasn't sure of my sexuality and who I was but she comforted me more like a friend would. "Hey babe." I flirted helplessly with her. I bit my lip as I heard nothing but pure silence on her line. Was she mad at me? Couldn't be. I've done nothing wrong to her lately. I sat there twiddiling my thumbs before I heard a simple "Hi" from her. Did she figure out that I-No she doesn't know that I've cheated on her with someone before but if she did. I would be in for a world of hurt.
"Louis, I think it's important that we have a proper discussion about some things." Eleanor sounded incredibly sad and weak. I can only imagine the despair on her face right now and it's sad how I might not be able to fix it anymore. "See the thing is, you've really hurt me a lot lately with the distance we've been feeling with each other and I want us to go back to how it was from the start." Eleanor mentioned, her voice faded slightly while she was saying how she felt.
I frowned slowly before mustering up the courage to say how I feel to her. I wasn't going to keep stringing her along. She deserved so much better and I only hope that she doesn't end up hating me for being honest with her. "Eleanor, I'm not sure if I love you anymore." I responded with pure sadness. I know last night I was wishing for her but not in a romantic way. I glared at my phone, waiting for her to speak. I was shaking at this point. "Eleanor, talk to me." I expressed quietly. I wasn't hoping to hear the amount of verbal abuse she was going to give me. The silence is making me more anxious.
"Louis, you broke my heart." Eleanor mentioned before sobbing into the phone. I shattered on the inside. I couldn't handle knowing I broke her heart but I can't deal with a loveless relationship any longer. I wanted to hug her and tell her things would be alright but I'm sure that would make things worse. I wasn't even around her to do that but I just wanted to do that now. She deserved a little reassurance that things weren't always going to be this way. "I'm going to go before I cry even more, I always knew you liked dick." She laughed before hanging up on the call we had.
I released a quick frown on my face. A couple tears came streaming down my face. It didn't even bother me that she said I liked dick because I knew I did deep down. She just doesn't know how hard it is for me to even admit it to myself. She taunted my sexuality like it was nothing and that hurt. I knew I wasn't exactly the greatest person to her but my sexuality shouldn't have been used as a joke to her. At this point, I was running late to my job and I had to stop thinking about this situation at hand.
I grabbed my bag and put in two cameras. I looked at the time and I groaned. "Fuck I'm late." I whispered to myself before dashing to my car. I know I didn't have to take pictures of Harry today but seeing his face made me happy when I was down. I quickly pulled up to the area I knew he would be in. I contemplated talking to him but he would most likely have security escort me. Next thing before I knew it. I saw him walking across the street.
I pulled out my camera and took a few pictures of him. Every picture of him turned out to be stunning. He had a face that was absolutely gorgeous in every way. He gave me a smile before continuing to move along the sidewalk. Which he had never done to me before. I was astonished at this point. He had such a gorgeous smile with such lovely dimples. He was a very handsome individual. He kept glancing at me before his security told me he wanted to talk to me. I was slightly nervous due to the last time we met but maybe he was genuinely sorry for being rude to me. Today could be a better day for me after all.
