I hold them inside
For weeks at a time
But when they brake loose
They never seem to stop
Crying for hours
About all the pain
Yes I liked him
I still do
I am in love
But they are together now
It's serious too
The river flows
I am seeing her for the first time in 3 months
She thinks I am her role model
I am nothing more than a lost girl
They come faster now
They warm up my face
Flowing quick and silent
It hurts
The pain
The anxiety
The hate
Flows out in a river of tears
Fuck love
Fuck all this shit
I am tired of it all
I am tired of trying
I am tired of pretending I am always ok
I am tired of "being happy for you"
Can't you see it is eating away at me?
CAN'T YOU SEE I AM IN LOVE?
But no one ever sees it
No one ever sees I am pretending
That I am just putting the smile there
They see what they want to see
And that is happiness
But little do they know all that happiness flowed out in the river of tears
