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Renesmees POV
What the hell was he talking about? My Jake would never leave me and our baby, I mean why would he? I know I have been a complete bitch recently, but surely he knew how much I loved him! Maybe I had got it wrong, maybe dad just meant that they had gone to deal with some sort of situation and would be back soon.
I looked up into my fathers eyes. I knew that I hadn't been wrong in my assumptions. The look of grief, loss and sadness swimming in his eyes confirmed my deepest fears; my one and only love had left me.
In the few seconds I had been processing my thoughts, my whole family had gathered around me, all whispering their condolances. I looked at the only person who knew how I felt right now; mom. She had a haunted look on her face; I could tell that she was playing the moments my dad left through her mind, she knew exactly how I felt. 'Nessie, we can pull through this,' my mom whispered as she took my face between her slender hands, 'We can find him, talk to him and sort out whatever it is that is wrong. It's all going to be ok'.
I tried to reply, but the tears were choking me, so I delicatley place my hand on her face and told her that way. I told her I was scared, scared that we wouldn't be able to find him, scared he would never come back.
'Listen to me Renesmee. You have an unbreakable connection to Jacob, he won't be able to stay away for long. He loves you so much honey, he would move heaven and earth for you! But I don't need to tell you this, you already know. He will be back Nessie, that I have no doubt about'.
I swallowed hard, trying to clear the lump in my throat. 'Thanks, Mom', I managed to croak. She hugged me close to her chest and I looked over her should to look at the rest of my family; my grief mirrored in their faces.
Dad came over to me and mom and wrapped his arms around us both. 'We will find him Renesmee, i promise you that'. He kissed my forehead and turned to the rest of my family. 'I think we should leave Nessie alone for a while. Give her time to think'. Dad kissed my forhead again and followed the others out of the room. 'Get some sleep, honey. We wull go and look for Jacob'. I managed a small smile at my mom as she got up to leave.
I curled up into a ball my bed, pulling my quilt over my fragile frame. Maybe it would all be ok. Jacob and I are destined to be together, we are tied in every possible way. After along time thinking, I finally manage to drift off into an uneasy sleep.
Over the next few days, it became clear that Jacob wasn't coming back anytime soon, but I wasn't giving up. Like mom had said, we had an unbreakable love. I was sat in the living room, lost in my own thoughts. I spent a lot of time doing that recently. Aunt Alice and my dad were in the room with me. All of a sudden, they both stiffened. At the same time my mom, Carlisle and Esme ran into the room.
'Is that...' my mom started. 'Wolf', My dad muttered. I gasped as they all looked at me. The familiar scent had just been picked up by my less-sensative senses.
As I sprinited out of the front door, the wonderfully familar scent grew stronger. I looked over the extensive garden to see movement on the edge of the dense forest. I charged towards the forest, my family close behind. The wolves emerged from the trees, led by Sam and Seth only a foot or two behind.
'Seth!' I screamed at him as I flung my arms around him. 'Hey, Nessie'. I couldn't believe it. They were back, but where was Jake? I let go of Seth and scanned the rest of the pack. No sign of him. ''Where is he?' I choked. 'Renesmee', I looked at Sam, his face was grave. 'Where the hell is he Sam?!'
Jacobs POV
The last week or so had been absoloute torture. I felt as though I was been torn in two; the wolf inside me desparately wanting to return to my object of imprinting; the Hunan me wanting to stay away from the woman who had murdered my child, although I wanted more than anything to be with her.
'Jacob', I turned around and looked at Sam. 'What do you want', I growled at him, since leaving the reservation, I had hardly spoken a word to any of the pack. 'Jake, the others want to go back to the res, those whose hav imprinted cannot stand to be away any longer and the others want to see their families'. 'Well i'm not stopping you', I snapped, venom seeping from inside, 'I didn't want you to come in the first place!'. 'We needed to make sure you weren't going to do anything stupid'. 'Well it's been a week and I haven't, I think I can manage without you all', I started to walk away from Sam. 'You can't stay away forever Jacob!', Sam shouted after me. I ignored him and morphed, shards of my
clothes littering the ground.
So now it was just me, alone at last. I had turned my back on Sam, once again disconnecting myself from the alpha and effectivley the pack. The silence in my head was piercing, I wasn't used to being so alone.
The silence in my head allowed me to really comprehend what had happened. Renesmee had murdered our child, killed my little boy or girl. I stopped dead in my tracks. I could no longer be with my reason for existing, so what was the point?
I had already considered how I would end my life if needed; the same way Edward had planned to so many years before. The rest of the pack knew about my plan, but didn't actually believe that i would go through with it; they were wrong. The pain, loss and grief I was feeling now was nothing compared to any feeling of emotion I had ever felt before. I couldn't live with it any longer. I had to go now and end this mounting pain as soon as possible.
*****
It took me less than a day to reach voltura. I knew that the Volturi would be more than willing to destroy me; One of the Cullens told me that one of the three blood sucking creeps had a fear of wolves.
I knew the pack had been following me to try and change my mind, but seeing as though I had a flight booked on the next plane to Italy and they didn't, losing them was no problem. They wouldn't have been able to change my mind anyway.
As I ran towards the city, in wolf form, I knew when I was close because the stench of vampires became overpowerig. If it wasn't for the many human scents diluting it, I think I would have turned round and ran the other way.
I arrived at the edge of the trees and looked up towards the great city. That was it; that was the place I was going to die.
