Poems.

Why?

Why am I not good enough? What did I do wrong?

Why am I not good enough? I know I don't belong. 

I might not fit in with our family, or anyone really,

But I love you, so why can't you love me? 

I know I'm stupid, I know I'm dumb. 

But tell who I need to be, tell me who to become.

You tell me why I'm not right. 

You tell why I'm wrong.

I know I'm not good enough, I know I'm not that strong.

Help me to become who you want.

Help me to be better.

Someday I hope to be more than just a sweater.

You tell me i can come back never,

I wish I knew what you meant by that, but clearly I'm not that clever.

I know you say you love me, 

Although I don't believe its true.

The emotions you see,

You cannot construe.

The emotions I feel,

I cannot explain.

Because when I try, you get mad, and I feel bad again.

Should I just leave?

Should I just go?

I'm probably nothing more than a comedy show.

I'm sorry for wasting time,

I'm sorry for wasting space.

I'm sorry for being alive,

I'm sorry for doing things.

I guess I should let you go,

Let you enjoy your happy life.

It will be much better, 

When comes my demise.

If you really did enjoy my presence I'm sorry I went away.

I promise I will come and visit in about 60 days.

I see you need a break or two.

I've made mistakes, quite a few.

I'm trying to fix myself, I am.

Hopefully you'll like me better when you can.