i was only 13 when my arms first started to bleed my first broken heart, my first shatterd soul, this
blade is my only friend. my only partner my only love. schools was just a hell, a broken cell. with a
empty shell. broken family broken life is there someone who will ever truely love me, years go by n i fell
for more lies, no body seems to care. seems like i was all alone years go on n i though i finally found
my man though life was finaly getting good. until he ditched out once i said we are haveing this
baby. a child of a man u where should of never trusted you. 3 year wasted. 3 years alone. baby i
needa cut i though i needa feel anything but this heart break. baby stop he yelled. but he never did
anything, i ant ur girl....i never was, finaly my son was born n life was happy once agein. but it
creeped up on me life a knife n stabbed my heart agein not once but twice. every day i just get lower
wiht my self a steam. want to over dose but my hands will stay clean, i cant take his mama away
because its not his fault. my hearts always hurting the blade was my only friend. now my baby boy
is my only friend he saved my life thats more then id like to admit. i owe him so much so i keep
going on with out even complaint. promise u wont cut mama his eyes screamed to me i cryed
and promised him only if you never leave. so see i need him alot more then he needs me my lifes
turned around and its all because of him i have a home, food, family. every day i fight it for him ill
take this promise to my grave and i mean it. i hope you never feel this pain alexander <3 just
remeber ur the reason i live on. so if you keep fighting so will i....
