What the hell am I doing?

Chapter 1

I'm so happy right now and life couldn't get any better for me. Exams have finished and my grades are bound to be high, I love the friends I have and for the first time in my life I have A BOYFRIEND.

I was planning on waiting I got into college or maybe Uni to get one but life decided to get me one early while I was still in Secondary.

To be honest, I was so worried about having a boyfriend to begin with because I had all these boyfriend worries, like "Will our relationship be awkward?","How do I even kiss", "do I have to spend money on this 'boyfriend '". But now, after going out for four months, I think some of my worries have cleared.

Boyfriends are nice things to have.

"Janet.. Help me with this maths question" said Linda.

"But didn't I already explain that question already?"

"I forgot. Help me!"

I sigh. I'd only been in the classroom for ten minutes and people were already set out to annoy me. So the lesson ticked on. Slowly. The bell rung.

I started to pack my bags when my teacher, Miss Green, asked me to stay behind to have a little chat to her. I started feeling uncomfortable in the stomach and the throat, I could already guess what she was going to say.

"So is everything alright now at home?" She asked.

If only she'd stop worrying. Everything is absolutely fine at home. Nothing's wrong there, no problem at all.

Just fine.

"Oh yeah I'm alright thanks."

"Well you certainly seem a lot happier now than before. But if anything's wrong, I'm always here, alright?"

I could only nod in encouragement. I thanked her and left the classroom.

"Why did that hag keep you in? Did you get into that much trouble?"

I instantly knew it was and turned around. My. Boyfriend. Andy. It feels weird saying that even now. He is just amazing.

"Aw, miss me already? She isn't that bad!"

He kissed my lightly on the cheek, my lips stretched out into a little smile and I looked at him.

Even in purple uniform with the awful yellow T-shirt, he still manages to look smart. His chestnut hair flops over his eyes so he's constantly having to flick it out of the way. His lips were soft and eyes were light blue. Like an icy sort of blue.

"Shall I walk you home?" he asked.

"No, I have to go to the gym today. Sorry."

"Fine,", He gave a little sigh.

"Something wrong?"

"Wait one quick question," he interrupted, " who goes to the gym with you?"

"Bryan, Wendy and Lizzy. Why?"

He's acting a wee bit weird.

"I was just curious. Anyway I was planning to take you out?"

"Alright.." I said with fake reluctance, "just one second while I call the others."

"I already told them!" He smiled proudly.

He grabbed my hand and literally sprinted out of school grounds. I was jus desperate to not trip over so I kept up with him. In what seemed like forever, we got the park.

The park where we met.

I frowned. "Why are we here? And you didn't have to drag me at full speed!"

"Consider it your gym workout. And do you not remember what day it is?"

"Andy, we've had this discussion. I couldn't care less about anniversaries under 6 months."

"Why 6 months?"

"Because after 6 months, we can say that we've gone out for half a year. Plus anything under 6 months happens too frequently!"

"So I didn't have to get you a present either?"

That didn't faze me at all.

"Nope. Boys are always complaining about spending too much money on their girlfriends. "

"Shutup. I know your views-"

" If you insist I'll accept it." I smiled, "you didn't have to spend a penny on me. I always feel bad. "

He gave me the gift.

"Would you like me to open it now or later?"

"Now."

I was prepared to have my grateful face. I opened the gift and saw

"A watch!" I gasped. It was a cute little analogue face with a red leather strap.

" Didn't your other one break last week?"

I nodded, and felt for the lump in my forehead. Last week I fell over somehow, banged my head and broke my other watch. Painful.

I gave him a hug, because I had nothing else to give him. He squeezed me back.

I wasn't sure whether he squeezed me was to do with him liking me or him wanting to feel my boobs on his chest.

But I wasn't going to ask him.

"Thank you so-"

He suddenly leaned forward to kiss me and I let him. We fell onto the grass and kissed some more.

I wondered what sex feels like. But I dismissed the thought as quickly as it came. But I honestly couldn't be the only one who thought this while making out.

"Andy?"

"What?"

"Do you think it's time we should.. well meet the parents?"

He grimaced. Don't get me wrong, I wasn't jumping to the chance either. But despite how awkward things might get, I wanted to see what his parents were like.

"Never mind don't worry about it," I sighed.

Checking my new watch, I said," we should be going."

The evening was starting to roll in and the sky started getting dark. I started to walk home.

"I'll see you then." Andy shouted.

"Bye!!"

He started walking in the other direction. I started to cross the road.

BEEP BEEP BEEP.

A car with suddenly came at me with bright headlights. It blinded me and I forgot how to function. My legs and feet stayed rooted to the spot and I didn't know what to do.

I shut my eyes and hoped for the best.