This is a DISCLAIMER this chapter contains self harm and suicide and themes that may upset or distress people!!!!! You have been warned
3rd person P.O.V
Everyone made their way back to laff and Hercs dorm and put their stuff where they were gonna sleep
"Hey.....guys we have booze in the fridge!" Herc says standing up for the couch
"Yes yessss bring the booze!" John said almost falling to the ground with excitement
"Guys, I'm still to young to drink?!" Alex said rubbing his arm and looking down
"Well then you can't have a drink can you!" Thomas said in a sarcastic tone
"Oh whatever!" Alex went and sat at the computer desk and started writing furiously
"Come on, we won't tell!" Herc said walking in with beer in his hands
"Is that SAM ADAMS?!!!!" John said snatching a bottle of Sam adams beer from Herc
"What ever, you guys have fun!" Alex said shrugging his shoulders!
"Awe c'mon Alex! Have some!" Peggy teased
"I said, I...Don't...Want...ANY!" Alex said clutching his fists
"Ok ok! God!" Angelica said sitting down on the floor
**later**
"Let's play spin the bottle!" Eliza says her words slurs
"Ok but one rule! Me Peggy and Eliza will share NO contact during this game from each other!" Angelica says as if she was offended
"Yes let's play!" James giggles
"You playing alex?" John says patting the floor beside him to invite him to sit
"No!" Alex snaps
"What's gotten into you?" John says feeling worried because Alex wouldn't even turn around
"Fine!" Alex says saving his work and sitting next to John
"I'm not playing !" James says red in the face
"Why?" Thomas questions
"I don't want anyone to get sick! Sorry!" James says reaching for another beer
The bottle spins for a few turns and then it's johns go
"My turn!" John says reaching for the bottle and spinning it, it points at laff
"Well mon ami!" Laff says as he and John reach in for a surprisingly passionate kiss that may have went on for to long when they pulled away John and laff were both blushing causing Alex and herc to share a worried look
"Ok I'm bored Thomas said getting in his sleeping bag and snuggling with James them both falling asleep Herc and Alex both go to bed
"John, that kiss was-" laff was cut off by John kissing him again the kiss more passionate than the last when they pulled away Laffs eyes were wide and his face red with blush
"Are..y..you gonna sleep soon?" John said feeling overwhelmed with emotion
"Nope not tonight, I promised Thomas I'd keep an eye on James!" Laff said pointing to James who was shivering
"On your own?" John said feeling half guilty for enjoying the kiss and half confused
"Yep all on my lonesome!" Laff said sitting on the couch and putting his ear phones in
When John kissed him again this time laff pulled his body close to johns and Alex sat up and saw what was happening
"H...HOW COULD YOU?!" Alex shouted causing everyone to wake up to see John on laffs lap pulling away from each other
"You...you BASTERD!" Alex shouted grabbing his stuff and leaving
But he forgot his laptop and it was left open on a page that caught johns attention but he didn't look at it properly
Peggy turned the light on. 5 mutinies pass and laff and John stood guilty looking down at their feet when Angelica walked up to them lifted both their chins and slapped them across the face
"WHAT JUST HAPPENED?!" Angelica screams
The boys stay quiet
"L..laff...how could you?" Herc says between tears
"Herc I'm sorry!" Laff says stepping closer to Herc but he just steps back
John heads over to Alex's lap top and reads what it says
The letter
Dear John
Roses are read, violets are blue, i never thought I'd find a man quite like you! When I'm with you I feel safe and I want you to know I would always be true to you, I would never cheat because I love you
End of letter
Johns P.O.V
It ends there, but it's not finished, oh god what have I done I think to myself burying my head in my hands and crying
3rd person P.O.V
"Wait!" Laff almost shouts
"What's the matter?" Herc says giving laff a death stare
"A...Alex and I had I private conversation once, he said when he was younger he was cheated on and-" laff paused worry consuming him
"What?" Herc said getting worried
"He fell down a deep depression and was self harming.... and he... he tried to kill him self!" Laff said causing Herc to run to Alex's dorm and without a word barged in kicking the door down to find alex hanging by his neck on a rope
Hey guys I got my writers flow back and I left you on a cliff hanger soooooo deal with it see u in the next chapter please don't hate me but don't worry I won't kill off Alex............or will I?
-Dilly
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