Was I ever good enough? (vents)

I should shut up-

I try to speak-
They tell me to not make a peep-
I want to say something-
It's not important
I can't opinions
Because you don't listen-
I should sow my mouth shut-
So I can shut up-
I have a flame in my heart
Since the start
Couldn't you tell?
I was falling apart
"You aren't yourself" they say
"Im fine" truly not- I'm wishing for the pain to go away
So I stay in bed and hardly eat
I soon shall taste defeat
We give up because our words shouldn't be spoken
So we pull out our hearts and slam them in a cage to avoid heart break-
It never fucking worked
So I shut up-
They ask why I'm so quiet
I looked at them "you made me like this,Aren't you proud?"
They don't reply but with screams and slurs "ATTENTION SEEKER!"
You feel your eyes water- soon waterfalls form-
You go home-you grab a blade and lock yourself in the bath room- quickly you pull off you pants to cut at your thighs- they bleed and bleed- the blade and floor is bloody- "Shoot..." you clean the floor yet keep the blood on the blade- you shove the blade into your pocket- and act like your fine- you lay in bed and feel the burning of the cuts-

You can't eat- if you do you want to puke

Soon for me- The game will be over soon