My name is Ella. 18 years of age. I was once their perfect daughter, but become their worst now. I was once adored by many, but I am hated now. I was once bringing medals at home, but now, I am bringing a letter from the guidance counsellor saying she needs to have a talk with any of my guardian and they need to settle down something. That is what I am, quite different from what I used to be. But the thing is, they made me become what I am now.
How can a mother be called a mother when she never acted like one? How can a father be called a father when he can't be one? How can this world be so unfair? How can my mother leave me like that? How can they forget that I exist, that I am still their child? How can they forget that they still have one? This questions are engraved in my mind and even if I wanted to forget it is still there. Why? Is it because I can't accept the fact that they did such thing to their daughter?
Back then, when I was still a kid, my father left us to be with another woman, with his mistress. I was really young that time and all that I need is a father who will protect me and be with me through good times and bad times. I was begging for him not to go. I was kneeling and crying my heart out just for him to pity me and change his mind but, I failed. He left me and turned his back from me without even looking back.
How can a father do this to a child? How can he do this to me? But then I moved on. I told myself, "Ella, let him go. He wants to go so let him. Do your best and show him that he should not have left you. Show him that you can still be happy without him." And yes, this time, I succeeded. I succeeded on fooling myself that I am happy and that I don't need a father. I bury deep into my heart the longing to have a father near my side. Anyway, I still have my mother. I know she won't leave me no matter what happen.
But that didn't last. My mother decided to work abroad just for her to sustain our daily needs. I don't want her to go but then I can't do anything since I am only 8 years old that time. And yes, again you are right, my mother left me with my grandparent's care. At least I am with my grandparents, I can still feel the love and security my grandpa and grandma can give me in exchange for my mother.
I was happy. I gave my all. I become the best in class. I became what I think my mother would be happy about. But I guess, she was not satisfied.
One day, I came home from a Math contest bringing home a Gold medal and a trophy. I was about to tell them I won the contest but then I found them in the living room talking. They were talking about my mother. I saw my grandma wiped the tears in her eyes. What is happening? That was the question in my mind. I never showed myself until my grandma said something that broke my heart into million pieces. She's asking my grandpa why a mother can leave a child just for money.
Why did my mother marry a rich man without telling me? Why did she told my grandparents that they will take care of me now for she can't do it anymore? Why did she choose that man over her child? Her own flesh? Her own blood? I believe in the saying that 'blood is much thicker than water', but I guess my mom don't agree with what I believe.
I called her. I wanted to ask her if what I heard was true. She answered me while saying I should not call her ever again and that I should forget her for she is no longer my mother and she don't want a child like me anymore. I was dumbfounded. I never spoke a word, I just listen and when I heard her hanging up my tears erupt like a volcano. I entered my room, locked it and I throw all the trophies and my certificates out the window. She doesn't love me anymore so better throw those useless things away. I cried nonstop, my heart was bleeding, she cut it too deep that I don't know what to do next.
I heard my grandma and grandpa yelling outside, asking me what happened and asking me to open the door, they continued on knocking but I didn't care anymore. It's like my world has stopped, I didn't hear anymore the loud knocks and yells of my grandparents. My tears are still flowing like a river but I didn't bother to wiped it. I looked down, outside my window and I thought to myself that if I jump over this window I'm sure that this aching in my heart will vanish and I will forget that all of these happens. I was about to jump only one step and I'm out, I close my eyes but before I could take the final step I was pulled back by someone. I open my eyes and I saw my grandpa and grandma hugging me so tight while crying and there I realize how selfish I am. I only thought about myself that I forgot that there are still people around me that loves me. I burst up in tears again and hug them so tight while telling them how sorry I am.
I was at peace in their embraced but something came up on my mind that leads me to uncertainty.
What if they will leave me also just like my mother and father did? What am I going to do if that happens? Can I still keep on living in this world alone?
This questions are still questions and will always remain an unanswerable question's in my mind but whatever happens in the future I will face everything heads on.
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