Chandelier
Lauren’s POV
Party girls don’t get hurt
Can’t feel anything, when will I learn?
I push it down, I push it down.
It’s all I had done since she left me. Go to clubs, push away my emotions. I can’t get hurt this way and I literally feel nothing anymore. When she left she took that part of me with her, my emotions, my love and my heart. I don’t need to feel anymore. All I need is the burn of the alcohol sliding down my throat.
I’m the one “for a good time call”
Phone’s blowin’ up, ringin’ my doorbell
I feel the love, feel the love.
It’s all I am anymore; a hook up. I had endless girls’ numbers in my phone. Numbers I am never going to use. No matter what I do with them, they are not her. Just for a while though, when I’m with them, I feel like I am special. Then, when they leave, I am reminded of what I am. Alone.
1, 2, 3 1, 2, 3 drink
1, 2, 3 1, 2, 3 drink
1, 2, 3 1, 2, 3 drink
Throw ‘em back ‘til I lose count.
I hardly stop drinking anymore. I don’t see the point. With the heavy blur of alcohol, clouding my vision and blurring my thoughts I can forget. Forget how she’s not here anymore. It’s all I need.
I’m gonna swing from the chandelier, from the chandelier.
I’m gonna live like tomorrow doesn’t exist,
Like it doesn’t exist.
I’m gonna fly like a bird from the night, feel my tears as they dry.
I’m gonna swing from the chandelier, from the chandelier.
I feel like I’m living in an alternate reality. A reality where she never existed: just a figment of my imagination. Living in this world, nothing matters. I can do anything, and I live like there s no tomorrow, because for her, there wasn’t. In the night, at the parties, intoxicated my alcohol I am finally flying free, and my tears are dry.
And I’m holding on for dear life, won’t look down won’t open my eyes
Keep my glass full until morning light, ‘cause I’m just holding on for tonight
Help me, I’m holding on for dear life, won’t look down won’t open my eyes
Keep my glass full until morning light, ‘cause I’m just holding on for tonight
On for tonight.
Sun is up, I’m a mess
Gotta get out now, gotta run from this
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Chandelier- Lauren Jauregui
Fanfiction"It’s all I had done since she left me. Go to clubs, push away my emotions. I can’t get hurt this way and I literally feel nothing anymore. When she left she took that part of me with her, my emotions, my love and my heart. I don’t need to feel anym...
