Slut// Grayson Dolan

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Lizzy's POV
"Come here." I say, scooting over.

He crawls into my bed with me and I lay my head on his chest.

"I just don't want to think about it anymore." I tell him.

"Okay.  Im sorry." He says

"It wasn't your fault either." I tell him and I can hear his heart beating in his chest.

"Gray I don't think I will be ready for sex for a while." I say

"Lizzy. That's fine I am not looking for someone to just fuck all the time.  I want to be with you, like you be my girlfriend.. if that's cool?" He says

I smile a little

"Gray." I said

"Please Lizzy" He said getting a little sad again.

"I wasn't going to say no." I say and look up at him.

"Really?" He asked with a small smile

"Yeah." I said nodding

He smiles a little more and I lay my head back down on his chest

"Lizzy I am never going to hurt you.  I am never going to force you to do anything you don't want to do.  I'm going to do everything I can to help you get past this and everything I can to make you happy." He says and kisses my head softly.

"Gray." I said

"Yes baby?" He says sweetly.

"merci d'être ici pour moi" I say,  (Thank you for being here for me, if google isn't lying to me)

"je serai toujours" He says

"What does that mean?" I ask and he chuckles

"I will always." He says

"Oh." I say.

We lay there for a while, my mind clouded with thoughts.

"Gray.. I am really sorry that I can't have sex with you..." I say quietly.

"Lizzy you don't have to.  Especially not right now." He says.

"Your a guy Grayson." I said and he sighs

"And your a girl." He responds

"Guys always want sex.  That's the whole fucking relationship for most couples." I says

"Okay well sex is great but not when the person you want to be pleasuring is uncomfortable with the whole thing" He says

"I just think you should think before we actually make it official that we are together." I say.

"I've thought.  And we already are together.  You don't get to break up with me within the first 30 minutes of our relationship!" Grayson exclaims

"Gray.." I said

"I don't need Sex to have a happy relationship with you." He says caressing my cheek hesitantly.

"We haven't had sex yet anyways and it's not like we were unhappy before." He said

"We were still touchy.. I don't know how much of that I can take.  It makes me feel...  used.. and disgusting.  Just like he made me feel."I said

"Hey." He says, lifting my head so I look at him.

"I won't touch your thighs.  Or your butt.  Or your boobs. Not your vagina.  Nothing.  But I really like holding your hand.. and hugging you.. and touching your beautiful face." He says, his thumb gently caressing my tear-stained cheeks.

"Okay." I say quietly.

"And I won't shove my tongue down your throat. Or kiss your neck.  Or give you hickeys.  But I really love the cute little soft kisses. If that's alright." Grayson says, his thumb now gliding over my lower lip.

"Okay." I said leaning in a little and kissing his lips softly.  The discomfort in my body goes away at the small little gesture oddly.

"I will try not to get boners but really there's nothing I can do about them.  They can pop up at the thought of pizza." He said shrugging lightly.

I giggle a little.

"None of that pokey thing you do." I say

"What pokey thing?" He asks

"You know! When you have a boner and you like.  Stab me with it." I said and he chuckles

"Well I did that on purpose but yes definitely no more of that." He said

"Gray it's not forever." I said sitting up slightly.

"As long as you need." He says.

"We will have sex.  It might take a month or maybe longer.. but we will.  I don't want you to wait forever." I said

"Don't worry about me waiting.  I can wait.  Don't rush yourself." He said

"We can take things slow." He says

"Gray." I said tilting my head slightly.

"What?" He asked

"Is it going to hurt.. When Alex did it it really really hurt." I say

"It will never hurt with me. It hurt with him because you were still a Virgin and because he went too rough." He said

"I won't be like that." He said playing with my hair gently.

"Never ever ever" he says