Luck

Chapter Eleven

I sat up on the chair and bit down on my lip lightly. The doctor hadn't been in yet but I could hear her outside talking to the nurse. They were talking about another patient losing her baby and I couldn't help but imagine if I had lost my baby, or a baby in the future.

Finally, the doctor came in and smiled at me. I gave a soft smile in return as sat up a bit more. "How are you today, Meadow?" She asked softly and I gave a soft shrug. "I dunno, okay, I guess," I mumbled. I didn't really know how I felt at that moment, aside from sick.

She nodded a bit and sat down on the stool in front of where I was sitting. "On the phone, you voiced some concerns about if you were pregnant. You said one of them was that your brother has Autism and doesn't do well with kids?" 

I looked at her and nodded a bit. "Yeah. He gets a really bad episode when he's around babies and little kids." I said softly and she nodded, writing some stuff down. She set her clipboard down before turning the machine on.

I pulled my sweater up when she asked and hissed slightly at the cold jelly. She smeared it over part of my stomach and pressed the wand to it. She had the machine turned away from me so I couldn't see it.

She hummed softly and moved the wand a bit, smiling. She didn't say anything as she handed me some tissues to clean my stomach off. "So... is everything okay?" I asked softly. She nodded and smiled again. 

"Congratulations." She said and handed me a few pictures where the baby was showing. It was still very small, barely able to be seen but it was the first thing that caught my eyes. I just couldn't take my eyes off the pictures. 

I was scared, to say the least. I was going to be a mother and I wasn't at all ready. Even if Teahyung wants to be in mine and the babies life, it'll be hard with him being on tour al the time. I didn't know what to do as tears ran down my cheeks. 

The doctor handed me some tissues and I let out a soft sob. She rubbed my back gently. "You know who the father is, correct?" She asked and I nodded a bit. "So what's bothering you?" She asked softly. I let out a soft sigh and set the pictures down. 

"He isn't exactly a stay at home person.." I said hesitantly. She nodded a bit and tilted her head for me to continue. "He's in a band. Actually, an overseas group. I don't know if you have heard of them or not, but he's a member of Bangtan Boys, or BTS..." I said softly and her eyebrow shot up. 

I sighed softly and looked down at my lap. "I hadn't even meant to fall in love. I was just supposed to go for a show and then we kissed and it just... I don't even know if he wants to see me again, let alone have a baby with me." I said and whimpered softly as my hand rested on my stomach. 

She smiled reassuringly and nodded. "Although I don't think I have had someone in that situation come in here before, but I think you know what's gonna work best for you. We have programs for single parents, as well as groups for parents that have a spouse that isn't home due to work." She said and I nodded softly. "Thank you." I smiled softly and sat up. 

After I left the office, I went to the park to think. I needed to tell Tae, but I couldn't keep myself from letting my mind think of the worst. I had always thought about the worst things before the best. What if Tae decided to leave me because of this? But what if he wanted us to get married?

With a sigh, I pulled out my phone and pulled up Taehyungs contact. I bit my lip and sent him a quick text to call me whenever he was free, that it was important. My phone rang not even two minutes later. 

"Hey, baby." He said softly, making my cheeks flush. I hummed a reply and looked down at the ground. "I didn't mean to bother you.. I can call back another time.." I mumbled and he chuckled softly. "I'm never too busy for you, sweetheart."

I blushed lightly and closed my eyes as tears filled them. "Please don't hate me.." I whispered and I could hear the frown in his voice. "Hate you? The only way I could hate you is if you cheated on me; and even then I couldn't hate you, just be really hurt." He said and a sob left my lips.

"Baby... you're scaring me.." He said softly. I knew I couldn't hide it from him anymore. I wiped my face off and looked up at some birds flying by. "I know you say that you wouldn't hate me, but I hate myself and I'm really scared right now." I whispered.

Tae was silent, waiting for me to speak again. "I'm pregnant." I finally said and waited for him to say something. It was quiet for a while before I heard him say anything. "I'm gonna be a dad!" He yelled and he honestly sounded excited. 

I let out a soft laugh as I heard a muffled 'who cares go to sleep' from one of the boys, probably Yoongi. I smiled and played with my hair a bit. "I love you so much Meadow. I promise we'll be there as soon as we can and you and I can figure out what to do." He said softly.

"That sounds perfect." I hummed and stood up to walk back to my apartment. "So how far along are you?" He asked and I bit my lip again. "Just over a month. Which lines up with the... i dunno, twelfth time you fucked me." I laughed softly and heard him chuckle. "I love you too, Taehyung. So so much." I whispered and sighed softly.

"I will always love you." He whispered before yelling at one of the boys about a pillow being thrown. That was my dork. My one and only. He was all I needed in life and I planned to keep him as close as I could.