Will my first boyfriend be my husband?

Frustration

Lendell's POV

That girl is driving me crazy. What can I do God? What can I do? Please help me!!! I wish she could understand how much I love her. I want her back so bad. Omggg!!! " Ouchhhh"" I think I have an headache. I think to much about that girl.

Noooo noooo noooo! That can't be happening. I fall in love with her after all the thing that I've been doing. What is so perfect about her that make me to want her back that bad? Her personality is just great. Her looks, her styles, her eyes, her smile and her voice, those are just perfect. I cannot even describe her beauty. She is so " hmmm". On top of that, she is a tenderfoot which make me to be the first person to even kiss her, touch her, cuddle her, give her love. First person that cross her heart. First boyfriend!!

I need to stop this. How can I let that girl get on my mind like this? I never been like this to other girls, what is happening now.

" You love her to much" a inner voice responded making him jump in my thoughts.

" Who are you to tell" I shrieked

"I am your guidance. Everywhere you go, I am here with you"

" That's just great, now I am crazy." I chuckled

" Do you remember when you first meet her and it was so difficult for you to talk to her. And I give you the idea to ask her for her number."

" That was a quick thought by the way." I followed

" I just want to tell you not to give up on her. Things that are difficult are always the one to keep because they are rare."

" Thanks for the advice! I got stuff to do, bye whoever you are." I sighed..

Few hours later, I've been calling her from God knows when, she never picked it up. Most of the calls automatically send me to voicemail. All you hear is " I AM NOT AVAILABLE RIGHT NOW, PLEASE LEAVE YOUR NAME AND WHAT YOU WANT TO SAY TO ME AND I WILL CALL YOU BACK .THANK YOU". She makes it seems like I can tell her all I have to say in voicemail. I want to hear your sweet thoughts too girl.

I manage to leave her a bunch of missing calls and some few voicemail saying that "I miss her, please pick up the phone.I just want to talk to her nothing more. I want to hear her voice. I have something important to tell her. I am sorry for everything. I really want her back. She drive me crazy. I love her." Nevertheless, nothing happen, she still ignore my calls. Few hours later, I finally stop calling her and wait to see if she will call me when she sees those missing calls,but nothing happen..

Why is life so difficult? I know I make a big mistake and I am so sorry for that. I know I am the one who is responsible for all of those things that been happening.. I wish she would have understand that and give me another chance.

AMALA, I wish everything were back the way they were.

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