gloom

24

It is back.

The ominous dreadful feeling that contaminates her entire thoughts that seems to leave a negative impact upon the ways that she use her brain to think had occurred once again.

She couldn't bare with those sick hurtful thoughts of hers when she was left alone,contemplating everything from the moment she breathe.

Why?

Why is she like this; she thought.

Why couldn't she just stop being such a burden to those around her?

Her family,her friends, even strangers;

It is just too much.

She still reminisce days before this shitty feelings came muddled over her.How happy and joyful she is.Making jokes and reference here and there,putting a huge smile on someone's faces.

How they burst into tears,holding their stomach and barking a loud ass laugh by some jokes that came out from her mouth.How she join in with them,thinking that she is once in the right state of mind like what she had always wanted things to be like.

But her life make a quick swerve and she is now back to square one.Feeling heavy and stuck at the lowest point of her life where everything around there are surrounded with nothing but her own hurtful thoughts.How they echoed her flaws while she beg for them to stop by yelling at the top of her lungs.

She had enough.
She had enough and she wanted it to stop.
She had enough,she just wanted to live like normal people did.
She had enough,she wanted to make a change but nothing seems to work.
She had enough,she broke down to tears,having a full meltdown.

Her head hurts.
Her chest hurts it makes her suffocated.
Her eyes hurts from bawling too much tears.
Her body hurts,from the constant pinching of feeling insecure and self hate that seems to drowned the poor soul out loud.

How could such innocent soul suffered from too many things to the point it wanted to make a quick escape and join the stars on the sky.

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