I Fell Inlove with My Bully (Niall Horan Fan-Fic)

Chapter 1

"Hi I'm Mia Rose, I live in London,England with my mom &dad. At times I wanna just close my eyes an never wake up, but I'm to scared to die...I tried ways to release pain to only to become everyone's source of laughter.I've never been good enough for anyone or anything that I have attempted . I wish

there was no hell because some of us just live it here on earth already, when a heart brakes it doesn't go back to normal it grows back ugly an crooked , we all search for that one person that can mend it back to the way it was but only some are lucky to find that person. I'm really scared of life...I have no ambitions,goals, or triumphs It never ceases to amaze me that when I was younger I wanted to grow up...get bigger an just live but as I grew I realized growin up wasn't living it was just not dying. Living was when I was little an could crawl under mommy an daddy an all my child like problems would seem to disappear. Not going in your room and cry yourself Asleep. I wish I could apologize to every person who hates me or dislikes me.....I'm sorry for not being pretty. I. Sorry for not being skinner.I'm sorry for being to Loud. I'm sorry for being me. I like to read...a lot just to escape this horrible place. My mom believes I'm delusional but she doesn't understand. Is it weird to crave love? I want someone to hold me, to care about me, to tell me everything is gonna be ok. But I guess things like that don't happen to people like me. All my life I have always been considered the "ugly" friend ... I wish I had long blonde hair an piercing blue eyes but instead i have lifeless black eyes that turn brown when I'm happy and medium length black hair....I think the reason why some guys talk to me because they want sex...I'd probably be stupid enough to let them have it to! I really really miss summer ...I seem quite but I have a lot to say.I guess your wondering who had caused this much pain....Niall Horan an his group of idiot bestfriends.At 12:13 pm on a Wednesday I sit her in the girls bathroom writing this....I probably should leave yeah?...