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Love can be confusing

Love can be confusing

Like every day, I open my facebook and do my chores: I update my status, go through the recent posts and give comments, and then I page through my friend list - each friend with his own memories. Then I go to my search page and look for that one name that's still missing from my friend list: First Love. But, the results are still empty - nothing new to me anymore.

Today, I decide, I'll just enter the last name to see what comes up. Secretly I hope that the name will magically appear before me (hoping that First Love opened an account under a second name or something), but to no avail. No, wait! There's something I recognize: the name that stares me in the face is that of First Love's sister (whose name I can remember very well as we often spoke about her). I click on the name and go through her friend list. Nothing... But then, suddenly, there is a name on that list which draws my attention: New Love.

I click on it, and...I nearly faint! There - staring at me with the recognizable smile and piercing eyes - is a picture of First Love in a white T-shirt, and hugging this person, New Love. Then I realize, First Love is now married, and this person, New Love, is the wife. After some more research I realize that there is now also a child...I wish the world could just swallow me whole and spit me out in a thousand pieces.

I look a little more, stare longer at the screen, look at the back of my computer...this must be a mistake and I'm gonna find it!! But, those eyes...those eyes...those eyes. Yes, they tell me what I've discovered for sure: there is no mistake. What I see here is without doubt First Love and the wife.

Then I wonder, "Does this name fit? New Love? What is that for a name?" I am pretty sure that it spells nothing good though...my name should have been there: True Love sounds so much better!