Instagram {Stoffel Vandoorne}

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renee is looking down at her lap, stoffel just staring at her and she knows it. she knew she would have to tell the story one day, but stoffel never asked about it and so she didn't have a reason. until now, until alex decided to comment under her posts.

"i understand that it might be a hard story, you don't have to tell me about it if you don't want to" stoffel mumbles, barely a voice. renee looks at him, seeing the sad look in his eyes.

"i want to tell you, it's just a hard and sad story" renee replies to him. stoffel nods, before he stands up and moves closed to renee. he takes her hand, rubbing soothing circles on her palm. it calms her down, enough to get her started.

"a couple of yours ago, i met a guy. his name is travis, travis grey. i fell in love with him right away, but he was unsure. i kind of followed him around until eventually, he loved me back. up until today, he is the only guy that had met my brothers, it said a lot. everybody around us knew how in love we are, we were. he was my first in everything. i dreamt about marrying him, about having his kids. we talked together about being engaged, he wanted to ask me to marry him.

one day, he decides to go to his work on his motor, i thought it was odd cause he always went by car. but his motor was new, he wanted to be on it as much as possible. he had texted me that after work, he had something to do so he'd be home a little later than usual. but that little later became hours and i started to worry. i've never worried so much abouy anyone in my life. my phone started ringing and i was hoping it was him. it wasn't, it was about him. it was the cops, telling me that..." renee lets out a sob, by now the tears stream down her face. stoffel pulls her close, holding onto her. renee takes a deep breath before continuing.

"telling me that he was in an accident, killed instantly. a car drove into him after ignoring a stop sign, not having seen travis. i felt numb, i didn't feel anything. until the funeral, when i saw his parents and alex, his brother. i didn't stop crying for atleast a week after that. it got better but everytime i heard his name or saw something on the news, it made me cry. i have never felt that way, ever" stoffel presses his lips against her temple, trying to find a way to comfort her, to be there for her. renee grabs his other hand, holding both.

"i had told alex i would never find someone like travis again, that he'd be irreplacable. i think that's why he's mad and annoyed. he thinks i found a replacement" renee keeps continuing with her thoughts and feelings. if she stops now, she won't ever start again.

"i'm so sorry renee" stoffel softly says, knowing it won't ever be enougb. at this point, renee ignores it as well.

"you have to know that i worry about you as well, so much. whenever you step into that car, whenever you drive out of the garage, i'm scared. i hide it, but at those moments i want to yell and grab you, keep you from going out there. i haven't felt that kind of worry since travis" stoffel feels his heartbeat pick up it's pace at her words. he feels so much for her, feelings he can't talk about after hearing this story.

"and you have to know that i feel safe with you. i feel happy and comfortable, another something i hadn't felt since travis. i am happy that i met you, stoffel vandoorne" stoffel kisses the top of her head, holding onto her for as long as he can. the things renee just told him, made butterflies go crazy in his stomach.