Diana's tales

The party of emptiness

The song was playing in the background but most of the people in there could barely hear it,some people were in the kitchen,the stairs,laying down in the walls,kissing and probably other stuff that shouldn't be done in there;those was Diana's case,she was smoking,smoking cannabbis,and we all should agree that for her age she shouldn't even be in a party like this. But anyhow she was completely fucked up 'cause of the cannabis and maybe a bit because of all the alcohol she drank,but most 'cause of people. Everything on her life was a mess,and as a teenager,she didn't know how to tidy it up.
Everything started when she was a few years younger and started to understand how shitty life can be,but obviously she would never imagine how shitty her life would be in a few years. It first started whit her best friend, Henry. He was a cool dude but usually didn't care much about school and liked to go out,and Diana always went with him. Then the boyfriend,he was probably the worst person she has ever met but without talking he was lovely,without talking he didn't say stupid things,and when I say stupid things I really mean it;he probably didn't even like her but she liked him. Diana,one of the most gentle person in this country used to like the most shitty person in this country. I don't know if he really liked her or not yet but she surely did. Then the rest just went down and shitty,thought the psychology university,she was falling apart,she was never the same. Used to drink and try suicide a lot,what was more depressing than anything,'cause she couldn't even do it by the right way.
And she was there;no soul,no fellings and no reactions,that was her. Looking at nowhere she could barely hear or feel the girl sitting next to her. She whispered something to Diana and then in the first twenty minutes she reacted to something or someone,wasn't a complete reaction at all,everyone in the room could see her empty look,she was totally lost in her mind.
"I'm not gonna fuck you" the emptiness girl said
"Why not? C'mon,you did that with most of the girls in here"
This was the moment she realized how dark things have gone,filling emptiness with sex. Diana Lionel filling emptiness with sex,actually,incredible. Where have the girl who had a lot of determination and wasn't dependent of anyone(not in the literal way,she had some conclusions about this)gone? In that moment she didn't even exist,but the she realized she was never there,she never existed,she was just another way to fill emptiness.
The strange girl was kissing Diana's neck and then came close to the mouth. Diana overreacted and push the girl away.
"Get off me"
Wasn't loud enough because of Diana's tiredness.
"That's why people don't like you,Diana"
The girl was apparently angry,revolted.
"And they will never like you. Look at you,don't even have emotions"
This time,she seemed angrier and had already got up off the sofa
"They never liked me then. I was always this thing full of emptiness"
Diana said while she was walking to the door. She was crying.

Notes
I know the history surely does have some grammatical mistakes but I probably won't fix it,my bad. I know that my writing skills still very bad but I promise It'll get better.