×Star Crossed× (JJBA X READER)

Okuyasu x (Female) Reader

WARNING: Depression, mentions of self harm, I think that's it though. This is pure angst guys, but I'm halfway through writing a Josuke one that's just pure fluff ;) Enjoy

This argument was quickly becoming heated. Your original intention had been to speak about this issue calmly with Okuyasu, but neither of you were very good at controlling your tempers and thus your yelling began. You see, the whole reason this fight had even started was because you had confessed that your depressive thoughts were getting more intense and you were afraid that you might start self-harming again. You told this to Okuyasu, so that he could kind of keep an eye on you, but you shouldve expected him to tell Josuke.

"Why would you tell Josuke?!" You seethe, a deadly glare set upon your features. Okuyasu stands firm, though you could clearly see the distress in his eyes.

"I—I just—I don't" Okuyasu stutters out lamely, trying to explain himself, before managing to say, "I didn't know what to do!"

"Honestly, I know that you tell him everything, and I'm usually fine with it." You admit, proceeded by your tone gaining its hard edge again. "But this is the one thing I didn't want anyone else to know. I don't want to be fucking hospitalized, and you know how I feel about making people worry about me."

"(Y/n), I just, I thought maybe he could fix you! Okuyasu says, his hands gesturing around nervously, his eyes beginning to tear up. "I have no idea how to help—"

"Fix me?" You say incredulously. "Fix me?! Josuke can only make things go back to their original state, I've always been like this, and I'm going to be like this until the day I die! I'm not some broken teapot that you can just glue back together, I'm a human being! You're about to go on before you feel a harsh shove on either shoulder. Not enough to make you fall other, but enough to get you away from him. It takes a moment to register that Okuyasu is the one that pushed you. Initially, youre angry, but then you realize.

You stare at Okuyasu, taking in his posture and expression. Experimentally, you raise one of your hands slowly, and you gasp when he flinches, screwing his eyes shut. You hadnt even noticed that while you were arguing, you were progressively getting closer to him, enough so that he was backed up against the wall. Okuyasu had pushed you out of fear....he was afraid of you. Immediately an intense surge of regret fills you, and your throat suddenly feels very dry.

"Oh god, I'm sor—"

"Don't apologize." You state fiercely. You weren't angry at him in the slightest, all of your rage was directed towards yourself. Okuyasu stood there, and you saw that he was trembling. He had that look on his face, the one where you knew he was trying his best not to cry. It broke your heart. "You didn't do anything wrong."

"But—"

"No, seriously." You interrupt again. "This whole fight was stupid to begin with. I shouldn't have gotten upset, I would've done the same thing in your shoes. I was being completely unreasonable."

He knows youre doing that thing again, the one where you shove everything down and act like nothing bothers you. In reality though, the regret of your actions settled heavy in your bones, and you felt as if there were a heavy weight on your chest. The thing that betrays how youre truly feeling is the trembling of your bottom lip, despite your indifferent expression.

"Hey." Okuyasu says softly, reaching for you with the intention of hugging you. However, you move yourself out of his grasp, eyes downcast and muttering "I don't deserve it."

"Yes, you do." He assures you firmly, pulling your trembling form against his chest.

"But you were right." Your quivering voice mumbles, finally letting a couple of tears flow. "I am broken, like a teapot." Okuyasu shushes you, running his fingers through your hair to soothe you. He smiles in an almost bittersweet way.

"I guess that just means I'll have to be your glue, right?"

I need to stop writing when I'm sad lmao