elijah mate

chapter 1: the new beginning

Today marks my 18th birthday and I'm guessing that it's the worst birthday in the history of birthdays. My boyfriend Edward Cullen is a vampire but if you ask my friend Jacob or better yet Jacob's family legends the Cullen's are cold ones because they only drink animal blood and they aren't really supposed to be a danger to any one because of their diet. Though tonight that almost changed when Edward's brother for all intents and purposes almost took a bite out of me.

Edward has an annoying sister Alice who can see the future and she thought it would be a good idea to throw me a birthday party when everyone knows that I hate to be the center of attention. Lately I've been getting very strange vibes around her when normally I feel the safest around her and the rest of the Cullen's besides Rosalie.

Every since all of that stuff that went down with James something just doesn't feel right about Alice but I just try to shake it off because she is my best friend after all. Tonight when I was opening the gifts that I got from all of the Cullen's I was opening the gift that Edward got me that I made him promise not to spend money on when I ended up getting a paper cut.

Normally getting a paper cut would not be dangerous but when you are bleeding even the slightest in a room full of vampires that don't drink human blood then you have a problem. Jasper is Alice husband and he is an empath so he can feel the emotions of everyone in a room and not only can he feel their emotions but he can also manipulate emotions as well. Once I started bleeding I was able to see everyone's thirst except Edward's father Carlisle because he is a doctor.

My guess is that Jasper felt not only his thirst but his family thirst as well and I don't blame him. I do however blame Alice and I plan to confront her tomorrow since Edward hurried and rushed me home after throwing me into a table and I had to get stitched up by his father. I asked Carlisle to tell Jasper that I wasn't mad at him because honestly I wasn't. He can't help who he is and he didn't have time to get his thirst and the others thirst under control, which it's not his responsibility.
Edward dropped me off with barely a goodnight kiss and frankly I'm tired of his attitude and his behavior around me lately. He basically tries to control everything about my life and if I do something that he doesn't approve of he gets angry and throws a fit until I see things his way or give in and I can't keep doing things to please him it's my life and I think that we should try to has things out tomorrow.
The next day
None of the Cullen’s showed up to school today and it was cloudy and perfect for them to come. I figured they were trying to all help Jasper and support him. I felt really bad because even though Jasper and I weren’t all that close I still love him just like I love Emmett. They are the big brothers that I always wanted and I didn’t want him to feel bad or think that I was scared of him. When I got home Edward was there and wanted to talk and I told him that I wanted to talk to him to.

He wanted us to go for a walk in the woods and at first I thought nothing of it because when I learned that he was a vampire he took me to a clearing during a sunny day to show me why they couldn’t go out when the sun was out. Once we reached an area that I figured he wanted to be far enough away in case the neighbours were watching but after he started talking I knew that he didn’t want the neighbours to hear me in case I started yelling. Little did he know I wasn’t upset.
I didn’t get upset at the fact that he wanted to be done with our relationship because honestly I felt that we weren’t going to last too much longer. I may not be the free spirit that my mom is but I will not continue to let someone tell me who I can be that’s for me to decide. I didn’t get mad until he tried to make it seem like he was better then me.

“Bella you’re not good for me.”
"You're kidding me right Edward? I'm not good for you? If anything I'm too good for you, I've let you rule my life and I got caught up with being in love. I may not speak up for myself when I should but I'll be damned if I will let you come into my life have me to fall in love with you only for you to tell me that I'm not good for you. You would have done better off saying it's not you it's me or we can still be friends would have worked better for me but don't you ever say something like that to me again." I couldn't help but be pissed.