elijah mate

chapter 17

ElijahPOV

We've been back home for a few days now and since we've been back Bella has been acting a little different. She told me about the feeling of death and that it's a possibility that someone from our family could die she just don't know who it could be. I know it hurts that she hasn't gotten a vision to try and change it and that's what really been bothering her.

I plan to show her the house tomorrow since I haven't been able to show her because she's been busy talking to the spirits. The spirits don't know what's happening either which is a first and they have been doing everything they can think of. Bella wants to tell everyone what's going on so we can all be careful and stay alert.

All I can do is be there for her but I know if something happens to someone that she really cares about it will kill her because she will blame herself. She will think that if she tried harder then she could prevent it. I keep telling her it's probably one of those things that she can't prevent that it's might need to happen.

She threw a fit and said well what if it's you that dies. I tried to tell her that she would just have to go on living but it was like talking to a brick wall she didn't want to hear any of that. She actually slapped me in the face when she said that. I wasn't upset because I know she is just frustrated that she doesn't know what's going to happen and when she tried to apologize I told her that I was fine and it was ok.

I just hope that whatever happens we will be able to somehow fix it or stop it from happening.

Bella POV
I can't believe I slapped Elijah I mean I actually slapped him. I've never been one to raise my hands to anyone in anger and the fact that I slapped the man that I love more then anything hurts. I know that he says it's was ok and he wasn't mad but I don't see how he wasn't mad. I was mad at myself I mean sure he said something stupid but I shouldn't have hit him and every time I tried to apologize to him he just wouldn't listen.

I was upstairs in the attic with Henrik trying to help him with his magic but it was hard concentrating when my emotions were all over the place. My nana told me that I just needed to slow down because that won't help anyone. Elijah told my nana and my dad that I haven't been sleeping all that well and it's true but he didn't have to tell them. I know that he's concerned and just wants to help but I wouldn't be able to live with myself if he was the one to die.

"Bella why don't we go downstairs to eat dinner it's getting late and I'm a little tired."

"You're right Henrik, I'm sorry I forget that you are still young and it will take some time before you can become stronger in your magic. I'm proud of you. You've been doing so well and picking up things so quickly. You will be a pro in no time."

"Thanks Bella. Hey just so you know it's ok and you aren't responsible for everyone and it's ok to ask for help. Remember that's what you and Elijah taught me so I'm giving you those words back."

"Thank you Henrik let's go see what they cooked."

I couldn't help but to smile at the young boy that I have grown to love and care about so much. He was always so nice and always willing to learn and I just don't know how my new family will be able to go on if they lost their little brother again.

The spirits did tell me that if someone that I loved did die that if they weren't at peace then I would be able to go on the other side and bring them back. However if they were at peace then there was no way to bring them back and that's what worried me the most. I know I should be happy that if any of my family died and were at peace but I want to be selfish and keep everyone here but I will just have to learn to live and work through it.

When we got downstairs I was surprised that it was just Elijah and Klaus downstairs waiting.

"Hey you guys what's going on?" I asked them confused.