The Best of the Best Friends.

The Power Friends.

How can I explain this. Well let's begin from where it all started. somewhere in 1990 or earlier or later a lady named Denise and a lady name Debora because friends and soon in 2001 had a child of their own. Denise with a beautiful girl named Alexis. My mom Debora had my sister Ariana. 3 years they had another child with their husbands. Denise gave birth to the 2nd most important thing in my life right beside my sister, but she gave this world a blessing named Kaylin, my bestfriend and I like to call my "sister". Debora gave birth to me, David, the boy she never wanted to have because of how he ended up. A mistake she learned by the time of 2017. But lets rewind.

In 2006 me and my best friend met at the age of 2. Of course it wasn't a real start but that's when it all happened when we saw each other. So we had play dates that we can't remember since we were so young but however we remember the kindergarten. We became real friends this year during school at recess and now when I look at it, she was my angel. I remember riding around a scooter/bike thing and seeing her just standing there watching us waiting to get her bike. She looked so funny when I think about it but then we had the same class and started to talk. At this point everything was still easy to get through but till this day we still make fun of that teacher that seemed to have a new younger boyfriend each time until 5th grade she finally got married to someone older so she was kind of a "go around girl" or what you can say as a gardening tool.

The 1st grade was when things changed out of nowhere. I found out my sexuality and I just knew I liked boys and that I was gay but I was never 100% sure. So I never told anyone. Secretly everyone knew so that when the boys came around and slowly I became so down because I was picked on, bullied, emotionally hurt, physically tortured, and so much more that any time I ever think of it, the topic can bring me to tears because of how hard everything turned from good to bad at such a young age too. Sitting at lunch alone. Or just playing a lone trying to fit into a group at handball courts. Or when I earned my spot back in school a little by being the king of tetherball. But through all that there was only 1 person the whole time and that was Kaylin. She was how I said my angel and my best friend. The thing is we always knew we were bestfriends I think but we just never said it because we were like more than that. We were family, so bestfriends is kind of a hurtful word because were brother and sister, but we say sisters because.. im gay.

2nd grade I was still bullied like hell and things got worse. Of course I had Kay so I always felt strong but the bullies got stronger physically and emotionally more harmful to me and starting calling me words like faggot which was the only real thing that brought me down because I knew I could never open up to the school. Kaylin always knew it and so did some of my friends but no one really knew who I was. That I am gay. It started from being a weak pup to where the bigger wolves would team to beat me up. Or taking note cards and paper to cut me since they didn't have knives. and then it was being shoved around and no one helping not ever teachers and it remained like this for all long I can remember to 6th grade. 4th was the best year though because my teacher Mrs.Griffin was the best ever. I mean she fought for me not physically but she stood by me and I felt stronger with her. Then there was the point when Kaylin started to not be around me so much because 6th grade.

I have to admit 6th the bullying did stop and I made 3 amazing friends that I only remain in contact with 1 till this day but during it all Kaylin wasn't there. She had a new class and we got seperated. The whole time I loved her though. She was still my sister that I could never replace no matter how hard I try. The times she gets me so mad to where I feel bad and we just hug it out and I tell her how much I love her because I know lasting a day without her is so hard. And that's where I thought it all ended 6th grade. But we still went to same middle school. 2 more years with her and by far the best years. 7th and 8th grade.

Bully friend, most popular kid, luckiest person alive to have her as a bsf, and accepted gay kid in school? Who was that. Oh hey that was me. But to be honest I really didn't need everyone how I needed Kay. Like the periods without her or the days she is absent were so annoying cause like how do I go without her it's so hard and I always call and miss her. But I also made some super close friends that I can see a future with. A real future with only 3, Kaylin and 2 other friends, and just a friendship future with everyone else. (If you're reading no offense, you know who you are 2 other people) and I still love all them just some maybe a little bit more. I've been making so much fun and so much success and teacher friendships that I've never had and these were the best 2 years of my life. But right when you think you life is perfect and homophobic free. You get the person you least expect in life to bring it back in 8th grade. Your own mother.

That one person that's just supposed to say how much they love you but instead say they didn't raise a son to be gay and then that son hear he's gonna be disowned and sent to a bootcamp and then that he's an embarrassment. Better yet when she spits on him for it! The best part was knowing I never would have a bond with my own mother how I used to before ever again. I bet you all are so jealous of this right? I know I'm so lucky. So once again I'm here with my amazing real sister that I so dearly love and cry to think one day she's out the house to college and what am I doing, stuck with homophobic parents. I swear I'm like the luckiest child ever. But you know what? I am the luckiest. I have Kaylin still and the truth that no one knows is. I attempted to run away but I decided that the pain should not be my guilt but I shall live with my mother so she deals with the guilt of having such a disappointment embarrassing gay son. Also I forgot to mention my step sister Alyssa. She's is such a ball of light and I am so blessed my parents divorced and that I got to meet her and spend my life with her and I so dearly love her so so much. Step family or not, she is most definitely my family no matter what people say. I love her so much.

It really doesn't matter because my real dad I know accepts me. He is like the dad I would love the be when I'm older. Just I won't be because I might not ever have kids but I love him. He tries and works so hard to drive 2 hours just to see us a few hours a day and drives back to get home at 10pm or later because he loves us that much. And he never knew anyone gay in his life so I'm the first but when he figured he said the sweetest thing ever. He said "If you are gay when your 18 and you ever want to go to a gay parade or something, I will go with you and I'll be the biggest lgbt supporter out there". That was a huge step in my life and I choose to live with him in 2 years when I'm a sophomore because I love him and I know he will love me too. The best part, I can still see Kaylin.

So yeah. This is the last year of life with Kaylin until it's all just facetime and calls and text with her because we won't be in school. Wow typing that saying it slowly out loud is just wow, that's the hard to say or thing about. Just thats it and there's nothing I can do about it. And no matter who I meet or who I ever call my bestfriend I will always never forget that you are my best friend and I love you the most and I will never stop. You are my sister blood or not you are! Your family is such a blessing I got to know and I will always remember them as my family too. Just Kaylin if you're reading this know that no matter what happens, no matter what you do, you can get arrested or have sex or do drugs or anything idc, I just love you so much. You are my best friend, my sister, my angel. You are Kaylin.