Broken

Flash Back

*Flash Back*

-6 year old Katie-

"Where's Tawny, she's suppose to be here?" I asked Ms. Kin, the woman who runs the orphanage. Ms. Kin was a kind, middle aged woman. I like her. I don't know what it is but she's got this motherly appearance. Ms. Kin is a little plump and has red wild hair that she is always trying to tame. Tawny was a little girl of 4. She had been there since birth. So technically Ms. Kin was a mother to her. Tawny had been my best friend for the few months I had been there. She was a sweet girl that was friends with everyone. No matter what. Anyways Tawny and I had a routine where every morning we would meet at the bottom of the stairs for each other then walk to the bus stop for kindergarten. This morning though she wasn't there though. "Honey, I didn't tell you? She got adopted last night by a wonderful family." Ms. Kin said smiling.

It felt like my world had ended then. Tawny was my everything. Now, though, she was gone. She was the air that I breathed, the ground I walked on. My life was over, knowing that she was gone. I swore to myself that day. I swore that I'd never let someone become important to me.

That night I entered the kitchen after everyone went to bed. It took me almost all night but I had finally reached my goal. A knife. Not just any knife though, the sharpest one in the orphanage. I've seen the older kids at the orphanage do it all the time. I once asked them about it and they said that it made you feel good. Well at this moment that's all I wanted to do. I wanted to feel whole again. I looked at the clock. It was 5:00 A.M. They would be up soon. I had to do this quickly and clean up my mess before they awoke. So I did it. Holding my arm straight and pointing the soft flesh of my forearm upwards, I brought they knife down and sliced. The blood came fast. Too fast. I have watched the older kids for years and this has never happened to them. I started to become dizzy, and spots started to appear in my vision. All that I knew was that life sucks period. Next thing I knew I was unconscious. A week later I woke up and everyone thought I was suicidal.

*End of Flash Back*