random outbursts happened through the simplest of moments as I realized just how much you made my heart flutter.
we were laying in your obnoxiously large bed, tangled in the unruly covers, and layers of assignments scattered about. frustration was tightening in my chest as the numerals on the paper weren't clicking in my head. and I was trying to concentrate so hard, yet you were the definition of a perfect distraction.
you were humming along to a tune that flowed through your ears, the pen in your hand drumming out the beat of it on your physics notebook. your head lowered as you made necessary notes with ink, your soft kinky tresses brushing against the apples of your cheeks. your oversized pink hoodie made you look a billion times smaller than what you actually were, as you cuddled into the warm comfort it brought you.
I couldn't help it as a sense of deep infatuation ran through my body. you just looked so soft and pure. and your steady breaths made me feel at ease. and every move you made caused me to become dizzy and dazed.
I just wanted to kiss you all over your face, letting my gentle affection smother you. and I wanted to hold you. yeah, I wanted to hold you so close and tight that being breathless was more intoxicating than dangerous. I wanted to cry on your shoulder and let my laughter fill our air as this kind of intimacy made me feel secure with you.
and I was so deep in being love struck, that I didn't know you were gazing right back at me. I guess my gaze was pretty intense as you were blushing shyly, pushing into your hoodie like a turtle. I couldn't help but to giggle for my face was heating as well, loving how self conscious you became under my burning eyes. Crawling forward in your obnoxiously large bed, I tackled you so that you laid flat on your back with my arms, caressing your tender frame. a short yelp fell from mouth as you looked up to see a silly smile playing on my lips. I hovered over your body as we shared nerve-wrecking glances.
I was pretty sure you could hear my heart punching against my ribs. and as I leaned down to connect our attention aching lips, I'm pretty sure our hearts were beating rapidly in unison. our mouths molded together and comforting tingles spread throughout my body.
your lips were a bit parched from licking them in concentration, yet I didn't mind. I didn't need your lips to be baby soft or your face to be clean of imperfection. I just needed you. you and the reassurance your kiss brought.
hesitant but firm hands were placed on to the curve of my hips, as if you were afraid that after the sweetness of the moment I would leave and never come back.
though, we both knew that wasn't true.
you let me deepen the kiss, allowing our tongues to graze and appreciate the warmth our mouths produced. I sighed into you, relishing in the taste of your mouth.
this was my favourite thing about you.
I loved how the mix of lingering strawberry gum and hazardous smoke settled on my own tongue.
It was just so...you
you always chewed the gum after you smoked your cigarettes, trying to mask your flaws with the perfectionism you placed on yourself. guess your hiding didn't work well as I could still feel your cons on my tastebuds.
but it's okay as I didn't need perfect out of you.
I just needed you.
and as we pulled apart, gasping softly for air, I couldn't help but look at you with deep infatuation in my eyes.
I kissed the tip of your nose, causing your skin to heat up and a timid grin to spread across your mildly swollen lips.
so at the simplest of moments, random outbursts showed you how much you made my heart flutter.
"strawberries and cigarettes always taste like you."
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Since wattpad failed me last time, I have to rewrite this ugH
but hi im tatiana and im in love with the idea of love. so I put my creativity to good use and created a romance one shot book. hopefully this idea doesn't flop as my strength is in poetry, not regular fiction.
i really hope you liked this first fluffy one i did. it's based off "strawberries & cigarettes" by troye sivan from the "love, simon" soundtrack. i absolutely adore the song and can't wait to see the movie ❤
anyways, make sure you stay safe happy and healthy for yourself
take care
~tatiana✨
