Crush x Depressed reader

A miss understanding. (part 1)

It was one of those days you were at school and it was lunch break.You were sitting alone until your  "friends" thought it was a good idea to come and tease you about your  crush, and you wre totally not pleased "heeyy i heard you have a crush on C/-n ~" said the blond bitch that was always  trying to act like a friend.You rolled your  eyes "Welp false alarm...I don't" you said the last part with a straigh face and a dark tone in your  voice.They laughed  loudly "How funny  Y/n, seriously stop acting  we all know you like him"said another bitch.You were now becoming  uncomfortable with the situation  and wanted to get away, but you knew there was no use cause that would give them a hint that your  uncomfortable, but they would think your  just shy because  they  are talking about YOUR crush yes thats right MY crush "Seriously can you get over the fact that i DON'T like him"you said annoyed ,you thought  to yourself  'lair lair tch i do love him and idk why maybe...Its his beautiful c/e/c eyes (crush's eye color) or his beautiful body or, or h-his nvm i gotta get out of this first wtf do i do' you looked like you were lost in your thoughts and the girls noicet this " Right then we'll go tell him ourselves  that you like him" the blonde girl said while smirking "Wait no i dont  like him wtf"you said in panic the blonde smiled "well who do you like then???" she asked "uhh" (hmm let's think of a name uhh...Willam? idk just go with it and if thats the name of you actuall crush change it to your crush's bff name,cuz u just lied in meh story right now)'lets just say his bff idc i dont like him it dosent matter' you thought "I-i like William" you said quietly.The girls quickly ran to the guys table and told William and C/n what you said,And you mentally slapped yourself  in your  head 'fml' you thought .The bell rang and you went back to class trying to forget about what just happened.

                 

                          Your Pov
( timeskippp,
walking home)

As i was walking down the street i felt somebody  touch my shoulder ,i turned around to see who it was ,only for them to bump into me and make us both fall to the ground. I look up to see who it was ,my eyes went wide (Bet ya already  know) it was C/N ,you blushed dark red "a-ah s-sorry didn't mean to"C/n says ,as i blush at the position  you guys are in.He was in between your legs while his face only inches away from yours and you kinda felt the urge to kiss him right there tasting his beautiful lips, you were in dream land, untillll you  realised you were staring for more than a minute "u-uh i-its ok i g-guess"you said ,while he got up and put his hand out for you to grab and get up ,you did and blushed (ofc you did) "u-um i just came here to ask you if you wanted t-to walk home with me?" he asked blushing slightly "yea i would love that!"you said smiling happly recovering from all the blushing.He smiles and you guys start walking home together,you guys were talking about random stuff until he asked you a really random question "h-hey c-can i ask you something?" (I know what ya'll thinking but...No) "yea what is it" you say clamly "i-i just wanted to ask you if p/y/h(person you hate name AKA the blonde bitch) ever talks about me? I-i k-kinda like her...Not like her but i think i actully am in love with her" (Ha! GOTCHAA!!!  you thought he was gonna ask you out haha...No) he says blushing.You just stare at him dumpfounded "u-uh no she dosent at least i never heard her, you'll have to ask one of her close friends for that we dont talk that often really" you say clamly but your actully dying inside "o-ok" he says sadly and looks down "heyy dont be sad im sure she loves you back" You fake a smile (cuz baby its easy to fake a smile when you've been doing for awhile, btw if you know this song ily)
He smiles back "thanks" he says blushing slightly. You arrive home and say bye to C/n " goodnight" he says "goodnight C/n"i say back, he smiles and runs to his own house.After you are home you lay on the couch'thank god my parents are gone for 2 months 'you thought of everything what happend today tears started coming out of your eyes as you whisper "What does she have that i don't" you run your hands smothly rubbing your face "m-maybe im ugly...What am i saying...I am ugly" you cry louder, you go to the kitchen and grab a very sharp knife "Why me" you ask no one your voice shakeing from all the crying.You run the knife through your skin, it burned but it kinda felt good at the same time "First my parents...They never showed affection to me,ruining my childhood,ruining me...Then bullies...Breaking me,pushing me(pushing me as your on the edge of a very high mountain and theyr pushing you),marking me (meant for the cuts they made you have/do),th-then this"You cried loudly as the knife runs deeper in your skin.You fall on the floor tears flowing down your eyes"do i even deserve to live any longer" you ask but already knowing the anwser "Will it ever get better?" you ask already knowing the anwser.

                    END of part one

First this is not meant to make fun of suicide  in any way possible (cuz i have been there too and still am) its just a little story that i thought of ,so i hope you enjoyed it😊.