Tainted Soul

Hate & Love

-Jimin's Pov-

Two weeks has passed, so far everything is normal. I went to work, riding the train, and sleeps when I got home. I looked at my watch, it's still daytime, but I'm not feeling well, that's why I left early today. My body feels like shit right now. I've been exhausting myself with work that I started to break down. But somehow I needed it to take my mind off of that guy. I took a deep sigh, yeah, it's so stupid right ? I said that I could easily forget that guy, but the more I tried to forget the more that guy face keeps on coming back. I wonder how much longer I have to deal with this ? Why can't I forget him ? Can I really able to forget him ? Or am I actually don't want to forget him ? I shake my head, no way, there's no fucking way that's true. It's only been two weeks right ? Yeah it's still haven't been that long. I convinced myself as I heard the train announcement and step out of the train.

I walked to the exit, but I paused in the middle. The place seems a bit different, yeah, it's totally different, where the fuck am I ? this isn't my stop, but I'm sure the train was announcing my stop earlier. Fuck does my mind is messing with me today, I looked around, wait a minute, this place, somehow it feels familiar. Ahh, I remember, this is the same station that I got off two weeks ago. The same place where I meet that guy. But how ? I mean do you tell me that my body's unconsciously going to that guy place ? No way, this is bullshit. I need to get out of this place fast before I met that guy again. I thought as I turned back for the train platform. But just when I'm about to turn I hit someone and fall.

"Ouch, I'm sorr-" I quickly looked up to say sorry but I froze. Fuck my life, It's that guy. He immediately offer his hand but I brushed it off.
"I can stand on my own." I said it with a sharp tone. He stare at me and chuckles.

"Still stubborn like always huh ? By the way what are you doing here ? Don't tell me you come here to meet me ?" He said as he looks around.
"Come with me."  he grabbed my hand and starts pulling me to somewhere.

"H-hey wait ! Fuck, where are you taking me ?" I said as I tried to let go of his grip. He's ignoring me. He led me to some room. I remember this room. This is the same room as before. He closed the door.

"What the f-" I gasped, he suddenly pulled me to his arm.

"I know you will come back. I keep on waiting for the day that you will come to me again." He whispers it as he's hugging me tightly. I can feel my face burning hot, my body feels so relaxed. I feel so safe. Being held by this guy somehow make me feel calm.

But no I can't let myself get carried over again. That time I couldn't resist this guy touch because of the heat, but this time is different. I pushed him away.

"What the fuck are you doing ? Who said that I come here for you ? Don't make things up on your own you fuck." I said furiously. He looked at me surprised.

"But earlier, you clearly look out of place as if you're looking for something." I gritted my teeth upon hearing his reply.

"What ? What the fuck are you talking about ?"

"Hey, I'm pretty sure of what I see, you look confused when you get off of the train. And then you start looking everywhere for something. So I thought you were looking for me." He said as he looked at me, he seems serious. Fuck, do I really look like that ? I fucking hate myself.

"W-well, it's true that I got off at the wrong stop. But that's because I'm not feeling well today. It got nothing to do with looking for you or anything." I looked away, fuck, I'm so fucking embarrassed, I can feel my face burning, I bet my face is fucking red like a tomato right now.

"You're not feeling well ?" He said as he approach me and leans his head closer. I gasped as he's leaning his forehead. His face, his lips, it's too close, I can feel my heart pounding. I closed my eyes as he looked at me but he suddenly pressed his lips against mine.