Steria

Bye Jeravian

I got up and walked away before he could even say a word to me.He made me this way.He was just like my father.In my heart I knew I couldn't handle school for the rest of the day.I skipped and headed to my house.My mom was at work and she left a note saying she would be late.My phone rung and it was a unknown number, so I answered and as soon as I heard his voice I hung up. He had been trying to reach me since last summer. I blocked the number and walked in the kitchen.
I opened the cabinet, ready to fix some bacon mac and cheese. The doorbell rung so I got a knife and put it in my pants. Who tf knew I was at home?? Who tf knows where I live?
I looked through the peephole and decided to act like no one was home .He had to give up soon. He had to realize no matter how hard I wanted to forgive him I couldn't. He made me feel loved and then he turned on me. He did something I'll never forgive him for. He knocked this time. I walked in the living room and sat down to watch Jerry Springer.
This time I heard the door open And he was bout to get fucked up. I grabbed the knife out my pants and stood behind the corner of the living room waiting for him.
"Ria"He said whispering like the crazy nigga he was  .I swear I loved when he called me that
He was the only one who let my name melt on his tongue like a fluffy marshmallow . Damn, this is why I cant handle his presence. I always have to remind myself that no matter what he's still that man who looked me in my eye while my father raped me. I know its wrong to still love him but I still do .I still love him .I still want him. I still want him to break my back .I decided to not kill him and give him a chance.
"what the fuck you want Jeravian?"I said trying to sound like I didn't care about his presence .I missed him so much but the pain was stronger than the love I had for him.
"Ria,baby I missed you"He said hugging me. Against the smarter part of me I hugged him back and sunk into his chest.
"I missed you too"I say forgetting about all the dirt and dust my body ran through while being with him.
"But you hurt me .You stood there and let him do that to me. You didn't help. You didn't do anything except walk away"I said my eyes tearing up. Before the tears could run down my face I wiped them away .I didn't want him to see me weak. I didn't want him to see me hurt.
"Ria,I'm sorry. I didn't know what to do. My voice was stuck in my throat. My eyes were stuck on your body. My feet was stuck to the floor. I'm sorry he did that to you. I'm sorry I didn't help .I'm  sorry I couldn't be strong for you baby. I came back for you and only you. I promise if I ever find him ill kill him .You wont ever have a worry in the world if u just give me another chance."He said a tear running down his face. He was the only nigga that trusted me enough to cry in front of me. We cried together as our bodies wrapped around each other . He picked me up and pressed my thighs against his backbone. He kissed me so passionately that I knew there was no way I could get out of this one . I kissed him back and pressed my lips on his collar bone. He took me into my room and placed me on the bed without even using protection he rolled me over and kissed my stomach all the way down.
When we were done I told him to get out. I refused to look at him as he put his clothes on. He stopped putting his clothes and looked at me.
"I'm not leavin.  I'm  not one of those niggas . You aint kickin me out." He said picking me up and throwing the cover off my naked body.
"Jeravian,no matter how much of me I just gave you. I still need time. Time to get right for me and you . Time for myself .Time to heal from what we've been through.  Bye Jeravian".He left kissing my cheek on the way out. I couldn't stop thinking about him. So I hit his line.
'I miss you'
'You kicked me out'
'I still love you'
'I love you too baby .How can I fix this?"
"Show me how sorry u are"
"Can I take you out tomorrow "
"My other niggas need time too"
"Idgaf"
"you can take me out"
"I thought so. Imma pick u up at 5"
"okay, stank"
He was really doing something to my well being . Its safe to say our love wont ever die. He always has me wrapped around his finger. Jeravian is the only nigga I ever trusted. I can't just let him go that easy. I wont let him go that easy. He will always be my number one.
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Mm Spicyyyy
You think Jeravian and Steria will work it out?
Why they aint use protection??
Love yall
You are so dope dont let nobody tell you different
MWAH