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Chapter 8 | Epiphany

Zero shifts on his bed frowning to himself from the lack of body warmth he's been embracing all night. It lingers on his body and the empty space next to him which is quickly becoming cold; he breathes in snapping his eyes open at Yukashi's scent thick in his room. As he does he spots the blonde leaving his bathroom, closing the door behind him before his soft blue eyes find him.

Zero pushes himself up, facing Yukashi with a small yawn, "What are you doing here?" The hunter questions raking a hand through his hair and remembers he had lost himself the moment Kaname's scent was all over Yukashi. "Yeah, I ask myself the same question. I'm leaving now, I have to get back to the Dorms. I came here to talk to you but clearly, you just wanted to release your stress."

Zero flinches at Yukashi's words, his chest tightening in misery, "Yukashi, that's not...I'm no-"

"I'm tired, Zero," Yukashi's flawless face expresses his pain, "I can't play this little game. I'm trying to close the distance between us, I'm trying to understand you more but clearly, you don't want that. I want an answer Zero, I want to know where you stand—I don't want to go around in circles until you feel like you can tell me. Are you still in love with Yuuki? If you are, why are you doing this to me?"

Yukashi stops, Zero forgetting how to breathe for the first several seconds causing him to inwardly panic, "Zero, I want to be by your side. I want to support you, I want to know how you feel, I want to connect with you, and I have been trying but everything I'm doing doesn't seem to get to you. I gave you my body because you're the one I want, I gave you my blood because I am willing to provide you with whatever you need, and I gave you my heart, so I can grow to love you. But you're not responding to me. You're not giving me an answer. The first night, I told you, you can reject me, but you said nothing. You gave me hope, now I feel stupid for hoping without knowing if you want this or not."

His lovely voice cracks from time to time as if he's holding back tears; Zero wants to say something—he needs to say something except nothing is working for him. His lips won't move. Yukashi sighs nodding his eyes as something glistens in his eyes turning away from Zero, "I have to go. When you figure out what you want, I'll be willing to listen." Yukashi starts walking to the door.

Zero grips the sheets trying to resist the impulse to chase after him. Closing his eyes so he doesn't have to see the Pureblood leave his room instead he hears it making it feel much worse than seeing it. He tilts his head down breathing in sharply, the smell of Yukashi is everywhere and it crushes him, "Shit." He should have controlled himself.

He feels as if everything he is doing is wrong. He can't help it; he has never felt his emotions become so intense when he's around Yukashi. It's hard to understand anything when Zero can't control his emotions. Last night...it was different. A part of him was angry about Kaname but the other part of him yearned for Yukashi.

"You're late," Yuuki fakes a scowl on her face and rests her hands on her hips. Zero merely flickers down his gaze causing Yuuki to notice something about Zero, "Hey, are you okay?" She approaches him, concern thick in her voice.

Zero doesn't say anything at first when he reaches her but after some time he responds, "No, I had a bad morning." Yuuki blinks tilting her head as she follows Zero to the classroom, "What happened this morning?"

Zero contemplates in telling her about Yukashi but decides against it. It has nothing to do with her even if Yukashi thinks it does, "I fell asleep," He answers briefly. Clarifying nothing to Yuuki, she takes it as an answer unsure if she wants to continue pestering him. Yukashi's words plague his mind until he decided, "Yuuki, can I talk to you at lunchtime?" He questions.

The brunette smiles up at the silver-haired vampire, "Sure."

Zero couldn't focus on anything other than Yukashi. Every time he has sex with him, his thoughts are even more consumed by him, but this is different. He doesn't know how, he simply knows it is. When lunchtime came around—Yukashi still hasn't left his mind.