one less lonely girl

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"wicca." wicca looked at me and laughed. "me and wiggy, goth and gus have to all sleep together." tracy said and looked at their faces and chuckled. i got in the bed with wicca and tried to get comfortable. "here you can lay your head on me" wicca put his arm over my shoulder and moved my head on his chest. i began to think if this was the wrong choice. gus looked at me ashamed. i fell asleep really quick that night.

i woke up to wicca drooling on his shirt. i sat up, ew thats gross. i rubbed my eyes and walked to the boys bed. to see my phone on their bed,perfectly new. "goth wakeup" i shook goth but tracy and gus woke up. "eh goth is a heavy sleeper" tracy looked at me with white slob marks on his face. i put my phone in my sock to hold it. i laughed at his face "i dont feel good." tracy got up feeling my forehead "youre warm." i felt like i was going to vomit. i dont know why but its really bad.

i gagged and tracy rushed me to the bathroom. gus sat up and goth wokeup. tracy opened the toilet for me and i vomited everything i ate yesterday. "its okay, get it all out seven" tracy rubbed my back. gus came in "did you drink yesterday?" i shook my head. "she doesnt drink." gus nodded and walked out.

i threw up some more and tracy made a disgusted face. "eh i hope its not food poisoning." he scared me saying that and flushed the toilet. "i dont want food poisoning" i said pouting. "i dont want you to have food poisoning either." tracy handed me my toothbrush and i brushed my teeth and used mouthwash.

after that i started feeling better and walked out the bathroom. "are you okay?" wicca asked. i nodded and saw them packing. "where are we going?" is the tour over? am i leaving already? "we're going back on the bus." i groaned and packed up my stuff.

we got back on the bus and i kept my bags with me, the boys had theres in the storage outside the bus. i sat next to goth and goth laid his head on top of mine. "we're going to the private jet." goth said playing with my fingers. "where are we going?" i looked at him in fear. im afraid of heights. "Texas for peeps second concert, ay whats wrong?" i didnt know if i should tell him or not. "nothing i just dont feel too good. "the toilets over there." goth pointed down to the bathroom. i walked to the bathroom and looked into the mirror.

i dont know why i started all of this. i miss my mom and lea. maybe i got homesick. things started spinning again as my thoughts ran around my head i feel to the ground passing out making a thump. tracy ran to the bathroom and saw me. "seven! seven! cmon wakeup" he tapped my cheek trying to wake me up.

my eyes slowly opened and i saw tracy and his terrified face. "seven? are you okay?" i nodded slowly. tracy took deep breaths and carried me out to the back seats. "what happened?" i took deep breaths and looked at him. "i was having an anxiety attack, i wanna go home." i said in a panicky way. "gus hand me the xanax pills" gus handed tracy the prescription bottle. "take one or two of these and youll remain calm for the rest of the ride, i understand that youre homesick."

tracy poured two xanax pills onto my hand and grabbed a water out the fridge. "tracy— i cant swallow pills.." tracy gave gus the pills in my hands "crush these and give it to her" gus nodded and put the two xanax into a bowl and crushed them up. im not sure if i should take these but im going to trust tracy on this one. "here, itll taste really nasty im telling you." gus sat next to me and gave me the bowl.

i looked at it and looked at gus. "is this safe?" i looked at gus with fear in my eyes. "yes, itll just calm you down." i poured the crushed pill into my mouth and got a mouthful of water and swallowed it down. "was it nasty?" gus scrunched up his face. "i didnt taste it." i laid back and tried to calm myself down.

wicca sat at the other seat next to me and was drinking a beer. gus and wicca was talking about something but all i heard was mumbling and laughing. then i remember falling asleep. "seven, seven, you good?" wicca shook my leg and i opened my eyes and looked at him. "yes, im just really thirsty." i sat up and grabbed the hennessy bottle out the mini fridge. wicca and gus looked at me in a confused way. "when you start drinking?" gus laughed and watched me sit next to him and open the hennessy bottle. "since now."