Dangerous Love

Epilogue: Completed

A year later...

I guess you can figure by now that Michael and I had a happily ever after.  I wish that was the case, but that night changed so many things in our lives. Larenz was so heartbroken and furious and so many other things. The ignorance and disrespect I showed him made something click in his head.  They call it temporarily insanity, but I’ll always feel as if it was premeditated. I held on to Michael as he held me. I remember it like it was yesterday, but it had only been a year. As I looked back at  that night, of it all, so much could’ve been done differently. I can sit here and doodle in my pad for all of eternity, but it’ll never change the fact that a life was lost. Before you get to screeching, No! Michael isn’t dead! Neither am I and Larenz he’s dead on the inside you can say.  Anyway, Michael held me for so long I had forgotten Larenz was even in the room. I kissed Michael all over his face and professed my love to him. That’s when everything changed that’s when Larenz lost it.  He pulled me away from, Michael’s grasp and he and Michael went back and forth arguing. Michael stressed to Larenz that he’d given him the opportunity to come there and state his piece to me. He also told him that he should leave with dignity and leave us alone, but Larenz was furious. The things that happened next are just too hard to even get out, but I will go on. He stared at me with rage and anger in his eyes.  He called me every bitch he could think of then pulled his gun from his pocket. I remember this scene from before when he and Michael were at each others throats and Michael had his gun. Anyway, he said that if he couldn’t have me, no one would and that’s when shots were fired. After that I blacked out and three weeks later I woke up from the coma I was in. I found out that Michael had also been shot that same night only his injuries were minor. After Larenz shot me several times he shot Michael thinking he had killed him. Then he turned the gun to his own head and shot,but he lived and infact he's in Atlanta right now. But can you believe that after all of that Michael still loved me and wanted me in his life? So much was lost that day so many lives destroyed and one that I can never get back. I was pregnant I’m sad to say and I still don’t believe them, but I was. They had to either save me or let me remain pregnant and I become a vegetable in that coma. It’s a decision that Michael think of often I can see it in his eyes. I hate he had to choose my life over his child so that I could live. As you see our unborn child was a lost and I never even had the opportunity to even know he or she was growing inside of me. All in all that night brought on so much that changed our lives, but in the end I still have Michael. I know I don’t deserve him, but he continues to love me. Larenz, I’m sorry to say he’s still quite bitter even after not doing, but six months in a psychiatric ward.  At first I was so angry at him for taking a way a child I never knew existed, but truthfully I  caused all of this and I can’t hate him forever without hating myself, so finally I forgave….