Lost

I travel a lot, I take deep breaths and inhale the fumes of the salty water. My toes in the hot sand as my feet heat up and start to burn. I walk closer as I listen to my heart beat with the ocean air whispering in my ear. I run away from the dark and run closer to the crashing waves as I feel the irritating burn of saltwater in my eyes. I get lost in my mind as I sink deeper into my thoughts. If you are wondering who I am, I am no one. I will not tell you who I am until I trust you and you trust in yourself. Have you ever seen someone cry? You felt like you had the blame for it or even just felt like crying with them? The world is cruel and it does things on its own. I know that you need attention, you need to feel loved by people you don't even know. I know that the world is going to die one day and I will die with it. I'm not the best example to other people especially to you, but what can I say. I act like what I set out to be.

This is not a story about me and it is not a story about other people. This is a story about the time everything felt free and didn't feel locked up in a cage. Memories are what I should call it. This cage... Dark and wet, but somehow beautiful like tears running down your face. Some enjoy the feeling of being lost in time and space. It can happen to you at any time of the day. If you think that you are getting answers you will only get the questions.

Do you ever tell yourself that you are going to do something and you never do it or you do it and then give up after some time pasts by? Well, let me tell you one thing. You can't give up on the thing that you wanted so badly. This society today sickens me because all people do is sit around and say they want to die when all it is for is attention. Maybe some people don't do it for attention, but today in society everything's a joke and nothing is ever taken seriously. People will say "I want to die" and the other person wouldn't even react to it, all they would do is say "same" and then walk away. People don't understand that there is nothing to be afraid of, but we are all afraid of being ourselves. It's a game that we are playing and we have to beat it to be able to get to the next level. Today people don't even try anymore.

I've been wanting to say a lot about how people act and how people just give up so easily. People get so judged and hurt. Something about others that don't want to hang out with a certain person without even knowing the person at all. These people kill me. All they pay attention to these days is their phones, looks, and food.

First off let me say this, you need to know that whatever people say its just

something that is on their mind. Either they will say something to show off in front of their friends or they will say something because they are hurting as well. You never really know someone and so why pick on them when you are just picking on yourself. You need to help people through a situation not create a new one, but anyways people just need to realize there is so much more they could do in this world.

I've been walking for quite some time now and I feel I should probably let you what's happening. My feet are in the water as steam is coming off. The sand burned them too much and all I hear are sirens in the distance. Two people are in a car, they look paralyzed. I walk closer to the car and police tape is everywhere. Two bodies on the sand. Somehow it actually looks like something from a cartoon. The bodies are flat on the ground kind of like a pancake with strawberry syrup.

Do you ever get looked at in class? Not the stink eye, but the look of embarrassment. Somehow you don't know whats going on and then all the laughing is behind you and you really don't want to look but you have to see what they are looking at. Yes, that is a lot, but it happens to some people. I would say that I see the world as cruel. Putting myself out there isn't really my type of thing mostly because I can't put myself out there. I can't tell if people just want to judge or if they just want to laugh.

Why is it that there are so many people who are depressed. People say they are depressed when they really aren't and I know people can't notice if people are actually sad. People have different emotions and you can never figure out what the person is really feeling. We lie our way out of things to make it so we do not have to deal with someone else's drama. The thing that scares me the most is that when someone has been through so much and you can see the pain in their eyes and how they act. They never tell you what wrong and they would never say why or what happened. Sometimes people are sad sometimes people are depressed and everyone needs to at least cry at one point. Maybe you need to see what my story is, maybe you need to know what's wrong with me because I've gone through a lot. Well here I go, my life story starts here.