His POV
"Thirds, ang hirap na. Yung pilit kong ipaalala sa sarili ko na okay pa tayo, na kaya pa ayusin to. Pero hindi Thirdy eh ang sakit sakit na, tama na naman oh." She said as her tears keeps streaming down her beautiful face.
I hate to see her like this. It breaks me to see the person very special to me being so hurt. Please stop. I don't deserve those tears.
"Hey shhh please stop crying. I don't deserve those tears. I never did." I said and held her hands. It was cold and shaking. I held it close to my face and I kept on calming her down.
"Thirds ano ba talaga tayo? Are we even an item? Or we're just really good friends? Linawin mo naman oh. Para hindi na ko nahihirapan ng ganito. Ang hirap kasi nung kakapit parin ako sa isang bagay na wala namang kasiguraduhan." She pulled her hands from my grip and said that pleading.
She doesn't deserve this much pain. All she does is make the people around her happy. To give them life. I never wanna se her lifeless just because of a stupid asshole like me.
"Uhm I-i don't know. But I'm sure you're very special to me." I said and bowed my head. I can't really look into her puffy eyes. I feel horrible for making her feel things I shouldn't.
"Bullsh*t Thirdy! Is that even an answer? I don't know? Really? Hindi mo ba alam yung mga ginagawa mo to make me feel special? Hindi mo ba alam yung mga pinaparamdam mo sakin? Hindi mo din ba alam yung mga motibo na pinakita mo ha? Baka hindi mo din alam kung anong nararamdaman ko ngayon ha? So ano yun? Ano yun Thirdy ha?" She said loudly and cried even more.
I can't say anything. My tongue's twisted into a knot. I don't know what to say. I don't think I know the right words to say to at least lessen the pain she is feeling right now.
"Yung paghihintay mo sakin after trainings, yung paghahatid mo sakin when you know Im tired, yung pag-aaya mo sakin for lunch, yung pagpunta mo sa mga games ko, yung mga late night texts and calls natin, yung pagpunta mo sa bahay para alagaan ako nung may sakit ako, Thirds yun ba? Yun ba yung hindi mo alam?" I can see anger in her eyes. I can really see how hurt she is.
"Im sorry Bei... it's not really what I meant." Thats all I can say...sorry.
"Sorry Thirds? Saan ba ko dadalhin ng sorry na yan? Mapapawala ba ng sorry na yan yung sakit na nararamdaman ko ngayon? Damn I never felt this hurt all my life. Sayo lang Thirdy. Sayo lang." She broke down and as she fell into the ground my heart started to shatter into tiny bits.
"Hindi ko na alam kung maniniwala pa ko dyan sa sorry mo... hindi ko na din alam kung kaya ko pang bumangon pagkatapos ng ginawa mo." She whispered into the wind.
I went to her and faced her. I tilted her face to make it to my level and I can see how vulnerable this girl right in front of me is. She may be a tough middle in the court but outside, she is this sweet and child-like beautiful babygirl.
"All I wanted was to take care of you, to keep you from harm. All I wanted was for you to be happy. Cause all I ever want was to see you smile genuinely. I wanna keep you away from bashers that might hurt you. I wanna keep you way from people that might take advantage of you. I wanna keep you away from people that can hurt your feelings. But I guess Im one of them. I never thought that I would be the one hurting you this much. I though I would be the one protecting you from people like me. But i was wrong Bei. I was very wrong." I said and shed a tear.
She whipped the tears that keeps running on my cheeks. She held my face and looked me in the eyes.
"Thank you for the good intentions but goodbye Ferdinand." She kissed my forehead and stood up leaving me speechless.
