If
If I could love again I would, he has stopped me from loving anyone else, he has imprinted on my heart, when will I find a way to break the curse he has left on me. I haven't felt love since the last melody I wrote, music can only satisfy the heart for a short time. Ever since he left me, I don't know how to feel love, I don't know how to love anymore. He left his mark on my heart. If I could get back the days I spent loving him, if I could erase the memory of him I would, if just if, all I have left is if, I know this may seem like a poem but it's not just a poem it's a poem with a story. He shall not be named as his name is a sin in my life. I cannot and will not ever speak of his name, that's all that's left is a name. 5 letters, 2 syllables, all full of love and hate. Why can't I move on like any other girl, why can't 3 days of ice cream and crying fix what has been done, why? Well it's because I still love him so, and if the girl he has now fallen in love with does what he did to me I bet you $20 he'll come back to me. But just if that red headed B**** stays with him for the rest of my short life I owe my friend an apology. My life is only short because I cut it short, I lost a lot of blood from cutting myself on purpose and on accident. Soon I will just stop my heart from beating and release myself from all of my suffering. I can only kill myself if I say goodbye to him first, but I can't I only see him in my dreams he doesn't come around like he used to, we'd do everything friends and couples would do. sure my life is filled with excitement and I've got things going for me but seriously who thought I would live this long, well I didn't I can tell you that much. I tried many times but the only thing that comes out of it is crying and suffering. I'm gonna end the suffering and before I do I promise I will say goodbye.
