Every morning i wake up with you right next to me.
I dont know why your there but your there.
I get up from my bed only to be pushed down
I get up.
I get up and i get up and i get up
You follow me through out the day
You tear me apart like the pages of my diary i shred
I carefully pick and choose what im going to wear because im terrified of your opinion
Some days im afraid to open the door.
If i open the door a world of hurt is waiting for me.
I open it anyway
The sun hits my face like rays burning my skin
I get to school every day thinking im being stared at
I walk the halls with my head down
I sit silently while you rage on
You watched as i wrecked my mind but kept a smiling face
You showed me what the "truth" was behind every word everyone was saying
The sticks and stones you threw at me molded into my skin and healed the tears.
The minutes turned to hours and the hours turned to days and the days turned to years.
A tear turned to sobbing.
A dislike turned to disgust.
A love turned to nothing.
The tears i shed turned to a pond then turned to an ocean.
That ocean turned into a person.
And that ocean washed away every bad feeling i had.
That ocean gave me hope that my life was worth living.
So dear Anxiety
You will not find me crying on the bathroom floor anymore
You will find me genuinely smiling
You will find me fighting back
You will find me getting enough sleep
You will find me treating myself better
