Oneshots

Supernatural Cast - first convention together

Just an idea I had, I hope it's alright :')
This is also a reader insert story and since it's my first time writing this I really really hope I'm doing it right!

For those who don't know the actors:
Jensen Ackles = Dean Winchester
Jared Padaleczki = Sam Winchester
Misha Collins = Castiel

I'm waiting backstage with Jensen, Jared and Misha, waiting until we get to go on stage.
It's my first convention ever, and to be honest I'm absolutely terrified. But I haven't told the boys, they've done this so many times that they'll maybe think it's silly that I'm so scared. I look at them talking and laughing together. Are they never nervous in moments like this?

I look down at my shaking hands. Not only my hands are shaking, my whole body is shaking. I have terrible anxiety and things like this scare the hell out of me, but there's no way I'm telling the boys and not joining them on stage. This is what I've always wanted, ever since I became a fan of Supernatural. I shouldn't be scared, this is like a dream coming true! But when I think about all those people, all those strangers sitting there, looking at me, I feel like I can't breathe.

I get snapped out of my thoughts by Jensen gently punching my arm. "Hey (Y/N), how are you feeling? Your first convention, that's pretty exciting isn't it?" I chuckle nervously. "Yeah, it sure is exciting, but I'm also really nervous." Jared smiles at me. "That's understandable, we all were when we had our first convention."
'But you didn't feel the way I'm feeling...' I think to myself, but I smile. "I guess so." Misha notices how nervous I really am and smiles encouragingly at me. "You'll be alright." I nod with a small smile.

Then we get called on stage. The moment we step on the stage the audience starts to clap and scream and my eyes widen. 'Oh God... This is a lot more people than I'd expected...' I think to myself. I start to feel more nervous and a little dizzy, but I try to calm down by just breathing calmly. The feeling passes soon enough and I sit down next to Misha, who gives me an encouraging smile.
Jensen bring the microphone closer to his face and says to the audience, "You all see that we have a new member here today, her name is (Y/N)."
"It's her first convention today, so let's all give her a round of applause!" Jared continues, and everyone starts clapping and cheering. I just smile nervously while trying not to look at all the people. Then they start asking questions, mostly for the boys.

'Oh God there's so many people... So many... Everyone can see me... Everyone is looking at me... Everyone can see every mistake I make... I can't get away if I'd want to... What if I do something wrong... What if I say something wrong... Oh God I can't do this...' I think to myself, starting to breathe faster. Then I suddenly hear a girl say, "My question is for (Y/N)." I turn my head towards her and try to smile, I try not to show anything. Which I quickly fail when I realise that at least a thousand people are watching me right now in complete silence.
"You haven't worked with these guys for very long, have you? What's it like to work with them?" She asks me.

"Well, uhm..." I don't really know what to say. 'So many people are watching me, what if I screw it up? What if I say something wrong?' "W-well, i-it's uhm... It's..." I suddenly can't talk anymore. I can't breathe. My body starts to shake, my heart starts to race. I struggle to hold the microphone while I look around at all those people. I look for a way out. 'There's no way I'm running out of here. No way I'm going to do that in front of all these people.' I think, starting to panick. My hands are shaking so bad that I drop the microphone.

I hear someone ask me, "(Y/N), are you alright?" but I can't make out the voice. I pull my knees up to my chest, wrap my arms around them and start rocking myself back and forth. 'So many people... Everyone sees me... Sees my mistakes...' I move my hands to the sides of my head and start pulling at my hair, which I do often in situations like this. I can't breathe, and my chest hurts really bad. I feel someone gently grab my arms and pull them away from my head. I look up and see Misha holding my arms and Jensen and Jared standing next to him, all 3 looking concerned at me.