Black Heart

. chapter four

Once I got home, I ran in my room and slammed the door. Pacing the floor for a while, I felt my throat closing up. Why would he do this to me? Especially on our "special" night. I told he would have the least bit of respect for me to control his "social reputation" until our dinner was over but I guess not. The tears started to come back and I whipped them quickly. He didn't deserve them and he sure as hell doesn't deserve me. I need to get out of here.

I grabbed my blue stripped suitcase from out the bottom of my closet. I quickly set up a hotel from my phone and then started to grab everything I would need. I didn't know when or if I was coming back but I had to get away. I'm too strong to let this kind of thing get to my spiritual.

I jumped, after hearing a loud bang on my door.

"Bell! Please let me in. Please let me explain." I heard Omar screaming from behind the door.

My heart sunk. I loved him so much it hurts. I wanted to open the door and forgive him like I always did,but if I do that he will never learn.

I finished getting the rest of my stuff and took a deep breath. I knew he would be waiting in the hall so I had to gain the courage to walk past him. I finally turned the nob and opened the door. I looked down the whole time as he walked behind me questioning where I was going and asking me to just listen to him. I just responded with a no and I don't know. I made it to the elevator and took one look at his face. He was clearly upset but he had no reason to. I'm the one who should be punching him in the face right now. The doors closed and I set off to my hotel room. 

I felt alone. I felt lost. I stared in the hotel mirror looking at what use to be Bella. I wasn't her anymore. I lost everything to be here and look at me. Crying, heart broken, unable to even confess my feelings to the man I have loved for years. I felt like my whole life was crashing down. I hated myself. Why is this happening to me? I hate you, Omar. 

(A/N: This one was a short chapter but don't worry there's more to come. Thank you so much for the support on this one. It really means a lot)