Every Time, It's Still You [TaeHyung]

Hallucinations

Recap:
"Because it makes my heart flutter," I said. Turning around and running away, back to my dorm.

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The next morning, I woke up with just 2.5 hours of sleep. It felt more like a nap than a full night's sleep. I wasn't too upset about it, yesterday was so much fun. I woke up smiling and then cringing at what I said to him.

I got up and went to class. The other girls were talking a lot. I didn't understand what they were saying but I could see them all gathering somewhere.

BTS was walking through. They were heading out for their tour today. I watched, they were all wearing masks and hats and carrying their luggage. I recognized TaeHyung, even though he was wearing a mask and a hat.

Surprisingly enough, he noticed me in the crowd too. His eyes crinkled up. I could tell he was smiling at me. All the girls in my area started fangirling. I just smiled back at him.

A few minutes later, I got a text from him saying "I'll be back soon~" and I replied "Be safe! Do your best, have fun!"

The tour was a short one. BTS was going to Japan. The trip was going to last about 2 weeks.

Even though I knew where he was going and how long he would be gone, I still got lonely and worried. Get a hold of yourself MoonByul...

In the dance class today, some girls were talking and out of the entire conversation, one name stuck out to me "TaeHyung". Just hearing his name made my heart beat faster. I must be crazy... How can I be thinking about him so often?

Suddenly, he appeared in front of me. He was sitting on the floor next to me, his legs spread out in a V shape, pretending to stretch. When he saw that I was staring at him, he placed his chin on his hand and stared back at me. What... what is he doing here?  He must have come because I thought about him too much.

I put my hand under my chin and stared back at him. He smiled, not saying anything. But when the teacher walked in, slamming the door really loudly, he vanished. I shook myself into concentration and paid attention in class.

The rest of the two weeks were lonely. I didn't realize how alone I actually was in Korea until TaeHyung was gone...

I ate alone, walked alone, practiced alone. No one wanted to talk to me for some reason, they avoided eye contact and didn't come close to me.

Even though I talked to Daisy over the phone and texted and called TaeHyung, I still felt incredibly lonely. I wanted to eat with someone... Or watch a movie with someone... I knew exactly who the someone I had in mind was. Kim TaeHyung.

Throughout the week, when I got extra lonely, I had more hallucinations of TaeHyung. He would sit with me and eat, or when I was doing work, he would watch from afar and laugh at a mistake. When I was in the practice room late at night trying to practice dancing, he kept me company.

I didn't understand why I was having these hallucinations... was I already that attached to him? I liked the hallucinations though, it made my week so much more bearable. 

Every time I saw him, somewhere in my heart hoped he was the real one. At some points, I even reached out, trying to touch him. Without fail, every time I tried, he would vanish into thin air. Eventually though, by the second week, I just accepted the fact that he was part of my mind.