My Exhaustingly Smart Mind

I am Danayah

I love road trips. Can I just say That? Like it is so relaxing to actually be in a car for like 8 hours, hearing the engine and the shwoosh noises of the wind as you pass by different places at different times. It may not sound as joyful for anyone else (probably because of the '8 hours' part) but if you feel pass That, you might feel a thousand times better.

I've never felt a day happier as when my dad ask if I 'wanted to drive somewhere for a while and then come back.' Long drives always relaxes me. But long drives is not the only thing. You know what else relaxes me? Human emotions. Yes I know, you and everyone else might be like "why? Human emotions aren't always the best. I wish i didn't have emotions" or something like that but the.. human mind is so, so interesting to me.

When I was young.. I always hated myself because I didn't have regular emotions like everyone else. I was usually happy a lot of times, never showing first hand of any of my unhappy emotions. Sometimes.. I would experience friends who were sad about problems beyond them and me and I would not be able to feel too much about them. Sadness never really came to me naturally when I was young.

But... Oh man when I got to be eleven.. let me just say it this way..

Shit hit the fan.

Periods: suck. Acne: sucks. Pimples: suck and hormonal temptations can come catch my motherfucking hands, feet, hell eyes. Puberty can catch my eyes for all I care for.
Them shits are awful And what do I need boobs?! What do I need periods for?? I KNOW the answer to both of those questions but still! What if I don't have the desire to have a living being feeding off of my very essence? Huh?! Like what th-

"DANAY!" Hi exclaimed, "wake up. You were not listening to me."

"First, I'm not sleep because my eyes are open, Sir Slow and second, I WAS listening to you. Until you started telling me what to do. THEN I stopped listening" i said giving not an ounce of a care.

Hi wanted to talk me into apologizing to his older sister. It was our first meeting with each other and I was trying to be nice. However, his sister just naturally found ways to hate me. Like how she misinterpreted my words because of my awkwardness. Like it's as if I had did something unintentionally wrong. I had already BEGUN apologizing but she didn't want to hear it. She hates me.

"Forget it hi. Ok? Just forget it. I already tried,I'm tired of hearing her rant to me about 'politeness." I said, mocking his sister's voice.

Hi silently glared at me then sighed, leaning back in his chair with his thumb and index finger on the bridge of his nose. Oh no..

"Ok. Well first you CAN sleep with your eyes open and second i wasn't telling you what to do,i just wanted you to hear me out. Look. Day.." Hi says, putting his hand on top of mine, squeezing my hand. No no no...

''I just want you too.."

He says, rubbing his thumb over my fingers which are irritatingly smaller than his. No..

"Try. Please?" He says with a deeper voice than before and pleading puppy dog look. This freaking bastard!

Ugh the nerve of him doing this to me! Nope, I'm not gonna. Uh Uh, uh uh I won't!...

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"UGH OK fine! I'll try or fracking whatever." I say, throwing my hands up in defeat while forgetting I'm in a car and the roof is few inches from head.

"Aah.." I say rubbing my poor index finger.

"Haha, I KNEW you cared for me!" Hi says, excitedly kissing me on the cheek and going back to his game of sudoku.

I glared. What a meanie..

Hideki and I were both nominated as 'the world's next big geniuses' and were prized with an invitation to the most famous school ever created for 'gifted children'. Monumental high. It wasn't all that to me however, hideki was freaking STOKED about it. Yes I said stoked. Sue me.

He always has this poker face to exciting events but to this one, he ESPECIALLY has a smile on his face. Seeing that smile just makes me smile as well.

"Hey guys. Wanna stop to eat/pee?" Dad asked, turning down the radio. Ugh my dad is so weird speaking. But I love him too much to ever say that.

"No I'm good." Hideki said going back to his game of sudoku. I so love/hate that game..

"No dad I'm good" I said

"Alright then." He said, turning back his song "I see fire" by ed sheeran.

I soon went back to my thoughts, peering up at clouds as I thought of how much I love clouds.