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Make You Feel Unpretty To

Chantelle Winnie as Leah

"I wish I could tie you up in my shoes make you feel unpretty to, I was told I was beautiful but was does that mean to you"-TLC UNPRETTY

I stand there looking at myself in the mirror ."Why can't I be beautiful", I would always say to myself every hour of every day .Why cant I be beauiful like Beatrice who's going out with Jack, the Quarterback on the football team. Why can't I be beautiful like those models in the magazines  that always gossip about the latest breakups and marriages between celebrities.Sometimes I would think that I'm at least pretty but then there would always be someone at school that would say something and I would  feel ugly once again. I look up and down the blotchy skin showing clear as day as i stand there half naked after just getting out the shower.I see the  lumps of fat on my stomach try so hard not to sag just sitting there making me look like im pregnant.

"You" re not staying home from school tomorrow so you better get your ass to sleep". I hear my mom yell from downstairs . I try to turn to go to my room and put on some clothes so I can go to sleep but my appearance draws me back to look in the mirror and I feel disgusted all over again , I shudder and then I turn and run before my mind can tell me to go back to the bathroom and judge myself all over again.I put on my long sleeve pajama shirt and the long pants to match , I get in my queen sized bed with the turquoise and black comforter on top. I get my Samsung phone and my bluetooth earbuds and immediately put on my sleeping playlist , I lay down and after the fifth song go off my eyes finally drop and I become dead to the world .
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I wake up to my mom yelling and cursing.I look at my phone and see that its six fifty "I might as well get up since I only have ten minutes left" I say to myself quietly. I get up and go to my closet , I look through the clothes and finally decide on a long sleeve white shirt with pants overalls and rainbow converse  with a rainbow headband to push back my hair. Before leaving my room I grab my galaxy backpack and make sure all the stuff I need for school is in there.I double check one more time one more time just to make sure before making my way downstairs where I see my sister Megan eating a  fruit salad at the table and my mom Sharon  cooking breakfast. I hear my sister talking about the way I dress and how no one likes me,  I ignore her but I know everything she's saying is true.I hear my mom tell her to be quiet and to be nice but I know she thinks the exact same thing.I walk to the door and grab my hoodie and tell them bye even though I don't get a reply back .As I pass by my neighbor Mrs.Bell 's house I go up to her front door and knock, two minutes later she opens the door and gives me a hug before she walks outside to join me.

I met Mrs. Bells five years ago. She was the first person to be nice to me after I found out I had vitiligo. At the age twelve I was confused when I started seeing white spots on my body and then those spots turned into patches. Because of these patches I lost all my friends even my best friend that I've known since my diaper days.When I met Mrs. Bell it was when my Ex bestfriend and my sister called me a freak and made everyone else make fun of me after seeing the patches on my body that define me. Well that day I ran home in the middle of the day and found no one home and the front door locked so I sat on the porch and cried my tiny heart out and that's where she found me. After I explained  everything to her she picked me up walked us to her house and sat me down with a plate of cookies and told me howbeautiful I was and how I should never let anyone's words make me cry.

"So how has school been, has anyone been messing with you".

"No,  no one has been messing with me and school has been awesome " I lie.

"Well you hurry and get to school before you and I be late" she says while walking to her car and getting in before slamming the door.While she reverse and then drive off i wave until her car is nothing but a speck down the road.I stand there and stare into space for a few seconds before continuing to walk to school. I arrive at school ten minutes before the late bell ring and hurry to my locker to put the things I don't need for the first three classes into it. I walk down the hallway feeling stares from every direction, I start to feel self-conscious of the way I look so I tuck in my stomach and put my head down.