“i’m sorry Alexis , but at this point there is nothing else that we could do “ said the doctor
“ the cancer has spread more than we entcipated the chemotherapy will not do her any good now “ he continued
“what do you mean there is nothing else you can do ?!” my mother shouted through her tears . “ why do we pay you if you can’t even save my baby” she contunied and she hugged my father and buried her head in his shoulders and started sobbing loudly now
“ How long will it take untile it happens ? “ i asked trying to hold back my tears .
“ a month at the maximum “ he said coldly, it was like he practiced being this cold so he could stop feeling .
“ A month !” my mother shouted and continued to sob while my dad held her
I feel bad for putting my family through this pain . I could only imagine what would feel like to lose a daughter .
“Mom , let’s just go “ i said
“ but, sweatheart we can’t we have to sign you in the hospital “ she said trying to stop the tears from spilling but she was failing miserably at it .
I looked pleadingly at my dad hoping he will understand me like always.
“Honey , please just don’t make a scene and do as she says , lets just go “ he said softing his tone
She looked at me with sad eyes and noded at him anf he took her hand and walked her out of the doctor’s office .
When we arraived back at the house , i quickly entred hoping they will leave me alone
i was out sitting on the roof of the house gazing at the sky thinking about all the things that i wanted to do in my life, and how much i will miss out on life because i wont have any time.
I suddenly got up i felt like there was a force that was moving me and took out a packbag , i started packing my necessities and clothes and i took the money i was saving for college
I started taking of my clothes , i noticed that , i lost a few pounds that i needed and my hair was starting to grow into a pixie style that would’ve looked great on me if i didn’t look so thine and pale , i noticed that my green eyes lost their spark and that i looked like a lifeless shell of the person i was before.
I quickly changed into a shirt and a jeans and tied my shoes , i took my bag and opened my door slowly hoping not wake them up , i i took a note and a pen and decided to write a letter to my parents.
By the time you read this i will be long gone, i’m sorry that i did this to you but i had to do this i need to find myself , i can’t stay here anymore , i can’t take seeing mom cry and tear up every time she sees me and i can’t stand everytime i got out of the house the look of pity that people gives me , i hate the whispers and the pain . i don’t want to be depressed in my last days , i want to live before i can even die , i want to fall in love , be kissed , i want to go see the beach for the first time ,help someone,make them smile i, i want to be crazy aand expirence new things and most of all i want to have fun and live my life to it’s fullest for the little time i have.
I promise this isn’t my goodbye , i will come before i go forever , but if in case anything happens i want you to know i love you and you were the best parents a girl can ask for, you were my shinning stars in this dark and i will be always in your hearts watching over you .
Love Alexis......
I was gazing at the airport’s screen that contained the flights trying to decide where I will go.
Suddenly it was my turn to book a flight
“Miss where would you like to go?”Said the booking girl.
“I would like to buy a ticket for any first available flight “I replied.
“It seems that the first available flight is for France” she said.
“Okay then, I will take it “I said trying to give her a small smile.
I was boarding on the plane when I bumped into someone.
“I’m so sorry, I can’t believe I am this clumsy “I said.
“Oh don’t worry about it “replied the guy I bumped into.
As soon as I laid eyes on him my breath hitched and I was awe struck
Standing in front of me was the hottest guy I have ever seen. He has board shoulders, well muscled, six feet tall, jet black hair and piercing blue eyes that seemed to sparkle on their own.
We were so caught up in staring at each other we didn’t hear the hostess talking until she snapped he fingers in front of our faces
“Can you hand me your tickets please” she said looking slightly annoyed
