Self Acceptance

HELP ME

I hear your loud screaming
As I scramble down under the duvet.
Your angry, hateful obscenities are gettin louder.
I try to cover my ears.

Your footsteps stop oitside my door.
Suddenly, the door opens up.
I shake in terror in the dark
As you shove me violently down to the floor.

You start to yell at me,
Verbally abuse me.
Learning a long time ago not to talk back.
I only listen, intimidating and terrified.

A sudden blow on my cheek interrupts my silent prayers
Another blow on my back
My tiny legs, my head, my neck.
Stop bashing me up!!

I cry out hurt and traumatized
In agony I howl.
The only thing I get in return is
Another strike for being too loud.

Help me, Mama.
Don't lie about my injuries.
Help me, Mama.
Take me away from this nightmare I'm in.

Mama is nowhere in sight
While her little girl is being slammed
Against the wall as her vertue is being robbed.
Where are you? Why aren't you helping me?

All I can hear is the sound of my clothes being ripped off
My own bones breaking.
I can taste blood in my mouth.
Daddy yanks me by my hair,
Draggin me down the stairs.

Help me, Mama,
Help me.

Under the light I can see my scars
My legs twisted.
My black and blue arms
My ears ringing.

I look around, whimpering
As daddy cries out, "Shut up,
You bad girl! Neighbors will hear!"
I cut short, scared to death.

As I lie here on the cold floor
Who is to rescue me?
No more Mama's comforting hugs.
Oh, Mama,  has he killed you already?

The thought of living without you terrifies me.
I start to cry loudly.
Knowing I have got to stop
I bite my lips.

Too late,
Daddy comes back.
He is hearting me again,
He twists my arms behind my back.
And positions himself behind me
Robbing me black...of my inoncense.

Mama.
Help me!

I slowly drift away
Everything seems so blurry and distant.
Maybe I am dying,
Maybe that will be better.
Back I go into the darkness
Nobody notice's me...
or my hurt or battered body.

Help me Mama,
Help!!