Poetry

So I will, Even though

I don't know why
I let you into my heart
Because boys like you
Never like boys like me
But I still want to be near you
To hear your laughter
See ur smile
It doesn't matter if it's about someone else

So I'll tell u how adorable you to look
When u send me pictures of you together
Even though I wish it was me standing next to you

So I'll ask you about your first date
When you've dropped that girl off at her house
Even though I wish I was the one to get that goodbye kiss

So I'll give you relationship advice
When things are going the best
Even though I wish I could just tell u that I love you and that we wouldn't have this problem

So I'll cry in my bed
When you've told me about this girl
Even though I could cry in your arms

So I'll be your friend
When you need me, when you want me, whenever I can be,
Even though I'd rather be your boyfriend

I don't know why I let you into my heart
I don't think I'll ever know why
But you are here
And I don't know how to make you leave
And part of me
Doesn't want that to happen
Because I'm still running through the scenerios of 'what if's
Even though I know it will never happen

I will be there for you
I don't care if it hurts me
Because who cares about me
I care about you
I want you to be happy
I want you to be okay
And if that means I'm not yours
So be it
I will deal with it