FLOWERS || sequel to timepiece

06.

it's been a while, kim mingyu. i'm pretty sure you're happier now, wherever you might be.

i came by our shared apartment about a few days ago; i came to collect some of my belongings that i have left and the place seems spacious and cold, i wonder if you have moved out to be somewhere else, wherever that is i hope you're safe and happy with or without her.

you know while i was there, i found myself outside the balcony, going through all of the memories we shared in that small living space.

we fought there, made love, made each other happy, we woke up to each other and i loved every single moment that i spent with you. thank you.

and upon reminiscing, my gaze fell upon two flowers that were the colors of red and purple, the purple one i recognized as hyacinth, those flowers that you gave me everyday and the other one was a rose, it was the first flower you gave me when i said yes.

though roses were quite cliche, i loved them still, because i knew it meant 'i love you'.

them being together meant "i'm sorry, i love you." i couldn't blame you for what you have done mingyu, maybe it was my fault in the first place for saying yes even though we weren't supposed to be together so in the end i got hurt.

but still i will forgive you, not because it's obligatory but because i really wanted to.

i'll forgive you for not staying and i hope you'll forgive me for not leaving.

i'll forgive you for not loving me and i hope you'll  forgive me for not hating you.

i'll forgive you for not holding on and i hope you'll forgive me for not letting go.

i'll forgive everything that you've done so until then this is good-bye.