Bad Boy (Z.TAO)

Chapter 4: Hurting

I grabbed my coat, shoes and phone and ran out the door. I couldn't take it. I couldn't stand him making me fall for him and then hurting me. Over and over again.
"Ai wait"
"No your the one who keeps pushing me away. I might as well stay out of your life. Go find another victim!"
I let a tear fall down my face. Maybe more than one, I balled my eyes out. I felt his soft hands grab my wrist and pull me into his embrace. I didn't even try to escape, I knew he would win. Plus it was nice to actually have some company around. To not feel alone. I felt something wet hit my head. It wasn't rain otherwise I would feel it all over me. It was Tao's tear. He held me tight not wanting to let go, to let out his emotions. We were both an emotional wreck, we couldn't hide it anymore.
"Let me take you back home Ai. Just promise me you will run if I look like I'm about to hurt you."
"I promise."
I was sobbing so much it was hard to say anything. He offered me a piggyback all the way back. I took his offer and jumped on his I back worried that I was hurting him. I didn't talk for the whole time back home. I was too busy sobbing into Tao's shoulder. He was being so comforting and supportive. I couldn't ask for any other person, just him. We got back to my place and I headed straight to the sofa. Grabbed a pillow and let out a few tears. Tao came and sat next to me to put his arm around me. He took away his arm and made me look at him.
"Hey it will be ok."
He wiped away my tears and cupped my cheek. We were staring into each other's eyes for about a minute,until he made a move. He kissed me. The kiss was passionate but, at first I didn't kiss back until he got me out of my daydream to reality and bit down lightly on lip. I was back to reality and kissed him back. What the hell am I doing? Why am I kissing Tao? He seemed experienced, he's probably kissed a lot of girls before then. I just hope I'm the best. What the hell am I saying? I need to stop.
"Tao what are you doing?"
"Using you what do u expect."
"Leave me alone Tao."
I walked away leaving him. He didn't really expect that I left him and was shouting threats at me. Those threats broke me. I ran away to an alley way to cry. He is such an asshole who can suck his own dick. I'm still such a piece of dirt to him. Why does he use me like this? Why me anyways? There are millions of girls out there and he choses me. But why? I have nothing to do with him apart from being is hoe now. I'm such a piece of shit. No one deserves me at all, I'm worthless to everyone, I'm invisible. 

It was the next day, day three of school.

"Hey sexy"

"What do you want from me Tao!? I've had enough of this! Stop using me! I hate you Tao! I hate you, I hate you, I hate you!"

I started smacking him. I couldn't hold it in, I let tears run down my cheeks. I felt Tao's arm wrap around me and hold me in tight to his chest. I gave up trying to fight against him, I just let him hold me. I felt ready to let out how I feel to Tao but, it didn't feel the right time at all. I wanted to hate him so much however, I just couldn't, and I hate myself for it!

"Ai listen, it will be ok."

"No it won't! Maybe if you stop using me and hurting me there maybe a chance, but that is unlikely for the amount of times you have hurt me!"

"Ai, I told you, if i hurt you run and don't look back!"

I ran from him, and not looking back. He hurt me right there on the spot. He told me to run if he hurt me so I did. Tao tried calling my name but, that didn't work I just kept running. The bell rang for class, great, English with Tao. This is not going to work. I got to English and sat down. Through out the whole lesson, Tao didn't show up. Where was he and why am I worrying so much? I decided to skip the rest of the day and went to find Tao. Time was passing fast, it was now 6pm. I have been searching all day and no sign. I decided to take a break. I walked down a suspicious alley way and sat on the floor. I heard heavy foot steps coming towards me, fast. Tao ran past me. There was blood dripping as he ran. He didn't notice me he just ran. More foot steps came. A whole gang came round the corner running after Tao. What has Tao done to get in this mess? I let them run past me and then I followed them. I sound like a complete stalker but, I wanted to know what was going on.

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