Darkness. My vision is clouded and my body feels light. This pounding in my head hurts so bad and i want it to go away. But I know I deserve this. I went against his word. I didn't mean it, really; I wanted to surprise him with dinner.
"I FUCKING TOLD YOU TO STAY INSIDE THE HOUSE BUT YOU DISOBEYED ME! YOU PIECE OF FUCKING SHIT, YOU NEVER LISTEN!"
He's yelling. Come on, sit up. Do something, you know he will get mad if you don't pay attention. There you go. Lift your head a little bit more. Look into his eyes. His face, his beautiful face, the one that made me fall for him, is now, once again, covered in blood. GOD, I should've listened to him. STUPID STUPID. Stop crying. You don't get to cry because you know that you disobeyed him and now you have to suffer the consequences. Wipe those tears away; no one is around to show pity.
"Baby, I'm sorry for yelling at you. I didn't mean it I swear. It's just that you have to listen to me more. I love you. Please forgive me, I didn't mean it, please love."
Speak up. Yell. Scream. Kick. Do something to show him that he can't hurt you anymore. Don't give in easily like you always do.
"I love you too. I forgive you."
My voice was so quiet I couldn't even hear it. You're so dumb. Stop this madness now and call the police, run away, hit him. Don't sit here and let his filthy hands touch you. For the love of God, do something towards him instead of backing away and giving into his psycho ways.
"Thank you. I love you so much. I'm so sorry I didn't mean it. I swear, I will never hurt you again." His filthy lips against my neck. I just want to burn my whole body. I feel disgusted with myself. How could I fall in love with someone like him?!
"I want to show you how much I love you. Come on, let's go upstairs. I promise I won't hurt you. I will be gentle towards you. I love you Louis."
