Blake's eyes fluttered open and he realized the warmth for Gwen was missing. He rolled over to find her sitting on the edge of the bed watching King sleep.
"Gwen what are you doing?"
"I'm just watching him sleep. I woke up because I thought I heard him but he is sound a sleep. I worry about him and the only time I don't worry or feel anxious is when I can see him. So I wanted to sit and watch him some."
"Well He is perfectly fine sunshine so why don't you come and lay down and get some more sleep. You need sleep sunshine."
"Ok" she relents to his relief
Gwen turns and climbs back into her spot on his chest. Blake is beyond relieved she isn't shying away as much right now. If he is being honest with himself he can't sleep anymore without her on his chest, so those nights she pulled away from him he didn't sleep at all. He pushes the thought from his mind and always the calming effect of having her close take effect.
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When Blake wakes up again Gwen isn't in bed and Kingston isn't in his bassinet either. Blake is really starting to worry about Gwen. He doesn't know if he should really leave her home alone with King over night like this. He leaves tomorrow morning and will be back between breakfast and lunch Sunday. He doesn't want to upset her and make he think he doesn't trust her because he has no doubt what so ever that she can take care of their son, but she is a little all over the map and it wouldn't be such a bad thing for her to have help. He gets up and heads down to the kitchen. There he finds his mom and Gwen.
"I'm a lucky man." He says as he enters the kitchen. "My two favorite women and my son all in one room."
"Good morning son."
"Morning mom." He says planting a kiss on his moms cheek. "Morning sunshine." He says planting a kiss on her temple.
"Morning" she says smiling up at him from her seat at the bar
"Well I see y'all ate breakfast already." Blake says
"Yeah sorry son, that's what happens when you sleep in."
"Love you to mom." He says pretending to be hurt they didn't wait for him
"Blake I'm gonna take King up and give him a bath." Gwen says
"You want help?" Blake asks not wanting her to feel like she has to do anything alone
"No cowboy eat and spend time with your mom before she goes home."
"Alright sunshine. Holler if you need me ok?"
"I will." She smiles walking out of the room and up the steps to their bathroom
"So Blake how are things really? Something about you two seems off."
"Honestly mom I don't know how things really are. She won't talk to me much and she doesn't talk to anyone else. At first I thought it was just the stress of having the baby and him being in the NICU but she still isn't herself. I just wish all of this could have been easier, ya know, her holding out until his due date. Everything would have been easier and I don't think things would be so screwed up if she had been able to."
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Little does Blake know that Gwen had turned around thinking that maybe Blake wanted to help her and she didn't want him to think he couldn't. She knew things hadn't been great with her lately and she wanted to give him a sign she still wanted him around. As she got to the door way she heard Blake talking and basically blaming her for everything. She couldn't stay and listen anymore about how she screwed everything up. She doesn't understand how he could tell her so sincerely to her face that it wasn't her fault and then turn around and blame her behind her back. If she wasn't confused and closed off before she definitely was now. She could feel herself shutting down and what made this worse was that she couldn't stop it. She turned around without letting anyone know she had been there or heard what he said. As she made her way to their bathroom she couldn't stop the tears that fell.
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"I throughly believe Gavin, her ex, is to blame for all of it. If he hadn't threatened her or assaulted her we wouldn't be in this situation. How is she supposed to not stress when he was mentally and physically doing all he could to get her. I'll never forgive that asshole."
