Pétales ➳ jjk+kth

xvii

dear jeon jungkook,

if you are reading this then i am far from your reach. the time i have spent in your companionship were enough for me to fall head over heels. your bunny smiles, your thin dimples, your love for the comical superhero, iron man, your kindness, determination and really your entire being. in my eyes you were perfect. you were my world. my everything.

i can't keep pretending. pretending that it doesn't hurt me. the way your hold her as if she is your world. as if she were the only you ever desired. it kills jungkook. it hurts so bad. the flowers, they just won't stop. i can't hold on anymore kookie. i tried, I really did. but i'm tired. so, so tired.

don't blame yourself. never blame yourself. because this, my death, is not your fault. far from your fault. the reasoning for my departure is all my doings. if i hadn't fallen in love with you then maybe, maybe i would be there, as your best man at your wedding, your hand clapped tightly in hers.

i'm happy for you kook. you found love. maybe not with me but your happy. content with her. and i'm wishing that the both of you will have a wonderful relationship that will hold tight for as long as you live. don't ever let her go. i can see that you love her. never as much as i love you but she holds a scared position in your heart. as your best friend i'm telling you, treat her right. treat her as your queen. love her with your heart. and may she too return the favour.

before i end i want to remind you that forever and always i will love you. my heart will always be yours whether you like it or not. words cannot express my love for you. nothing can portray my true feelings for they are too great to be shown to the world. they are too precious. they are yours. and yours only.

i love you jeon jungkook, forever and always.

- kim taehyung